19th

don feel like talking now.. wat the hell...

U!! STUPID!!!!!!! chi kei lee why u so dumb T.T
because of ur stupid action n it can make u lost 30 bucks reload..

lol..
it happen an hour ago..
foong n i on the phone talking about tomorrow cause thankx to my mom my singk gaigai plan have to be cancel.. ==
n half way my phone out of credit n i do remember that's a reload card in my beg.
i took it out n the stupid thing was too sharp nnnnnn
out of 14 digits..3 digits blur.. n i don know it's zero,three, five, or watever number can it be..
aaaahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
wat the hell!!!
i hate u i hate u i hate u!
it took me more then half hour to try n unblock it for 2 times..
ssshhhhuuuuuttttttt!

hiahz.. too bad lah.. tomorrow only call the stupid maxis center to found out some solution.. ==

today last day for jefferson a d..
n boss san show me a big smile == i was like huh? ==?? wat's going on..
n the topic that kak that all talking is like.... under 18th.. omgg..
ah, i had changed my hair colour yesterday X) thankx Rex for doing a great job n make us into the VIP room XD love it~

April's fool a d le.. but no mood lah..
stupid card..
stupid.. make me can't go singk..
stupid.. make me feel headache..
stupid.. make me feel useless..

why do i care so much? i'm human ok? wat do u wan from me?
watever lah.. don know, don care~!

tomorrow (or maybe today) going to johor a d lu.. foong if u wan to follow just come lah ==

18th

yeah yeah 开始倒数吧!!
3~~~ 2~~~ 1~~~~
开始要变成无业游民了~~

3 more days to go!! n i'm totally free~!!
omgg.... i'm shouting 'wan shui' from the bottom of my heart..
so happy..

3 months working... happy? got lah.. unhappy? ofcause got lah dumb..
kinda speechless qith my life now..
lol..
now relax le.. go working just work as a part timer only.. (really)
ppl say ok i say ok, any question? no no..
haha easy life..
just 3 more days n i can move on to next step a d =)

n i gonna learn a lots of new stuff n have a good starting..

17th

Songs.... is a very good molody to release ur stress. But songs also can be a very good memorise. For me, difference song difference ppl..

S.H.E -- Foong n Connie
Empty, Jenny -- Karuna
'Fong" (maple) -- Jia Yi
身骑白马 -- Kevin
说好的幸福呢 -- Zhi Wei
Sorry sorry -- Amirul
失落沙洲 --Hui Xin

It's good to rmb ur frineds but for couple once break up... hahaha.. quite sad lo..
u will feel like spoil the speaker or hate that songs.. lol..

**
25th of mac

early in the morning went seafield with my mom..
aarrrr, miss my form 5 life soooo much..

went ice skating with xin n i saw!! vi jin n ken!! n also aliff...
wat the hell how many months never see u all a d wei.. XD haha
so happy..
n finally now i dare to skate a bit a d.. last time always hold (grap) my friends' hand n don wan to let it go only XD
n i guess i can be better =P

teman connie makan for a while then go gaigai with foong n xin..
went kitschen~~ haha our playground~ woohoo..
ya lah have to buy some tee for college mah..
passed by Jefferson n i don wan to walk in!!
so... escape to PDI hehe.. met kevin's friend n he's last day == swt''
n xin still..... asking everyone to help her to finish her homework ==

went kimgary to have a drink.. yes... kimgary again...==
i guess the ppl who work there see my face until sien a d lo..
n they go drop down their name n liquid it on xin's paper XD damn cute..

n finally we understand why ppl say like that a d..

last time although we hate exam n the school rules but everyday we r around our friends..

happness, sadness.. haihz..

miss 5G!!!!
after that.. SHOW TIME~ redbox~!
but everyone go redbox firstly sure unhappy de lo..
cause of the service there.. lol..

at last went 5G class party for a short while.. [SORRY~!!!!!!]
the BBQ chicken YUMMY~!! can buka kedai a d XD
sorry for ffk for yamcha.. really tired a d.. n my foot aching ><>
***
i serious don know wat i wan now..
actually sometimes feel like i already got wat i wan i'm happy with wat i got but..
just feel like lack of something.....

'something'..
wat's the 'something' mean? *sigh*

i hope i can got my answer soon.. really really hope so..
i pray for it..

feel like the heart so empty.. something missing..

wat my heart want... n wat i wan.. really hope can found out an answer..

***
n i know i suit Cold colour but feel like trying other style.. lol.. but pls don cross my line ok a d =P

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独送昏暗莫离的风 回忆里被爱
那股激动 天色好红
温柔好浓 在胸口浮现你的面容
一起活在这城市迷宫 提起你名字
心还跳动 却没重逢
只留下碰却又不敢碰的那种激动
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂 走进各自天空
该怎么说让彼此选择 但思念还转动

不能握的手 从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手 却比亲人更亲厚
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔 最温柔

当又一次美梦落空 回忆里被爱
那股激动 天色好红
温柔好浓 在胸口浮现你的面容
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
那是什么 让彼此选择 又不仅是尊重

不能握的手 从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手 却比亲人更亲厚
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔 最温柔

不能握的手 从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着 依然执着
却决心和你不再联络
不能握的手 却比爱人更长久
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的拥有 最永久
##

16th

Connie n Hui Xin

long time never updated my daily photo a d..

thankx to hui xin cause she loves to take picture a lot.. [really a lot..]

so... if u see most of the photo hui xin will be in don surprise.. haha..

kiss~~

redbox.. crytal's sweet 18th..

in..... redbox toilet lol..

Love is in the air~
haha.. ask the staff from redbox to take for us..

Jefferson.. casue i'm working there so my friend will come visit me n non-stop taking photo..

because in Jefferson SWP that's super duper lots of mirror..

mirror mirror

can't believe we r using Vivian's laptop to make a reflation

random.... ahhh.. don bite me~~ XD~

nita's sweet 18th.. at BBQ plaza SWP

daily photo..

Kevin so semangat but i'm...... hehe

Steven (up left) n Kar Xin (bottom centre).. treat Jefferson as their playground.. lol..

yummy.. Valentine's day but we r.... lol..

15th

Wat i am trying to prove in those days?
To prove that without all this i can be better, i will be better, 会活得更好。。
只会更好。

***

23/03/2010

today try to drive.. oh my god... the 3 hours a bit bored.. n the whole hall i'm the only chinese...
swt lah wei..

1st time driving.. [not kidding]
although my family got extra car but my mom just don allow me try..
she said without L or P if u drive tough wood kena bang or something AIA wont do anything..
lol.. end up... mean.....
'if u die cannot get money from AIA'
*heart breaker* ==

less then 2 hours n he let me go on the road a d.. oh my....
haha actually quite easy lah just have to used to it that's all..
1st day try then used g3 a d.. lol..

so..... after i resign my job then i got time to do watever i wan a d.. with money in my pocket XD

***

不懂是小说看太多还是听歌听太多。。
终觉得。。 ermm..
怪怪的。 说不上伤心，说不上 ermm...
不晓得。
但是情绪起伏很大，还是说女生都是这样啊?



this is the original video from lady gaga n beyonce..
omgg.. can see how scary that a girl can be..
so.. when they said stop calling stop calling, just stop calling ==
but if u really really don call them anymore they will be more mad..
damn wat the hell right.. haha.. but too bad XP

n i don think this video can be play in malaysia.. kind of.. under 18.. lol..

14th

第14个 post 了。。

14 对我来说真的很特别。


2月14 --情人节 (当然，是 for 有情人的人)
3月14 -- 白色情人节 (for 情人的回礼)
4月14 --黑色情人节 (for 我们这些单身寡佬大喊单身万岁)
5月14 --记录着 ‘你又老了’ 的残忍节日 ==

终于终于炒了老板鱿鱼。你们这样对人咄咄逼人看谁要帮你卖命。XP

还有，我已经是 Taylor's 的学生了。爸爸松了一口气，因为他怕我又会临时改变主意 ==
July intake。 因为有重要的东东要做。

10th of May Connie & Foong 就要去 TARC 了。 超舍不得的。。。 =~=
终于，要帮我的头发放上新的颜色， 和 Foong 一起 =)
不过还是很想念我的长发。快点长啦!!!

我和 Xin 在 Taylor's, Foong & Coonie 在 TARC。一半叻。。
最近我们满迷SASA的，因为真的很值得。跟平常比啦。
买够过后我的宅女生活要开始了。因为真的很晒，不是我大小姐。和以前比现在的太阳晒在皮肤上会有刺痛。恐怖。。


Erm.. 对于爱情嘛。。周围德人都会问但是我和 Connie 的答案都是一样。
不是说完全的死心，ermm， 更多是没信心吧。。
还是说目前来说有朋友就够了?
不懂啦，现在的情形很不稳定。
爱情对于我很奢侈。
爱情最怕三心二意，专一这个词都不懂还有没有呢。
最近妈妈问我喜欢整样的男生，心里闪过了危险的气息
心想:"不要乱来"但是还好，她问爽 ==

突然很想听周杰伦的夜曲。可能因为歌词的关系吧。。

***

为你弹奏萧邦的夜曲， 纪念我死去的爱情。

跟夜风一样的声音，心碎得很好听。

手在键盘敲很轻，我给的思念很小心。

你埋葬的地方叫幽灵。

为你弹奏萧邦的夜曲，纪念我死去的爱情。

而我为你隐姓埋名，在月光下弹琴。

对你心跳的感应，还是如此温热清晰。

你那鲜红的唇印。

13th

做工那超烦的。。
我可不是无病呻吟，而是我们哑巴吃黄莲有苦不能说!

一个月里被强迫没有假期，等店renovation才能有假。。haihz..
不差啦，都要不做了。

你!竟然敢叫我肥?? 好吧，我要给你好看 [那时当场决定 ==]

SI Kevin say if some time u also lazy to make up d better don get a lens.. lol...
i just say the colour lens very nice only.. but true also XP hehe

after put on ,make up have to remove de le ''Ah Siang (Sir)'' = =

i wan to change my hair colour~ but but... no time for now... (uuurrrrgghhh!)
errmm wat colour shall i use le?

just finish watching SNSD new mv Oh!
in the end of video they pop out two type of SNSD but i would like to be the right hand side one XP

12th

got a heavy headache yesterday..

aaahhhh... i hate this..



was chit chatting with Raj last night n it's all about friendship n education..

kind of sick so not going to Jefferson today but i think my mom will bring me to Mid Valley for the education fair.. i got to know this because of a lecture from limkokwing told me.

****

~after~

feel super bad now.. cause it's so expensive!
diploma + degree.. haihz..

in the end.. tourism ---> event management..
the KDU ppl said it's a bit like PR.. == n i turn my head to my mom n show a (==) face..

tar quite cheap but 1stly far.. 2ndly they don have the class that i wan i guess.. or else kampar.. which is my hometown there.. LOL..

Taylor's can give better offer n also the location but the most expensive out of all..
KDU not bad also.. cheaper (compare to Taylor's) but a bit far.. at Damansara.. n if register earlier can get cheaper also.. but just imaging that everyday have to drive to damansara n come back to subang.. it's $$money$$ also..

new inti don have the course in new inti subang jaya..
or else.. ony hotel management which is name Genting Inti.. Location: Genting ==

my ghost..... why that is so many thing to think about ps: money..
pps: money..
ppps: money..

uurrrrggghhh.. some more i'm not smart == or else... haihz... don wan to say a d..

11th

never know that after getting result will create more problems..

since last month never off a d le.. very tired de lo..
some more now fann about school n intake..

1stly say PR very good then i choose MS lo.. suddenly say why the school so far so dangerous..
==

of cause i know international college better right but look at the fees man [woman]..

suddenly said ' we "hope' u can study management'
wat the.... before that said PA not good.. fine.. change.. HM too expensive.. fine, change..
said we wont do anything u have to choose urself.. but now 'we "hope" u can bla bla bla'
if wan to help me choose just told me earlier lah I'm ok with it de mah..

haihz..

but yet.. next next week i will got my been long time waiting---- 4 days holiday.. (22th till 25th~)

in 4 days time i don know how many college that i can go also..

taylor's? don know.. will go see how's tarc going on.. inti maybe?

22nd teman my mum..
23rd running over..
24th 6 hours..

this 3 days sure full a d..

left only one day can play.. the that guy say left it for him.. haha.. [jk lah i guess]
n they r really fun though.. =) nah nah nah, give u guys a Star* XD~

time pass so fast.. but kevin said i like small girl, Xiao Mei Mei.. swt~~!!!!!!!!!
why~??? = =

think is fake me wan lah.. XD
i'm 18th soon wei..

aahhh, gonna stop working soon liao.. hao se bu de ni men~ sob..sob..**
i will miss u guys i promise this promises XP

stop being sad n we can't change the history..

*sigh*

btw, so lonely~! c'mon let' huggggg~~~~pillow! XD

wat to do... wakakakakaa..

enjoy single life ba~! *muax* nite zzZ

10th

不是很满意自己的成绩。。烂。
有点不开心。。

但过去了嘛。。想想未来更好。
终算放下一颗心里的石头。。

未来会更好!!! fighting~!

为我好。。。。。不要再问了!!!! XP

***

喜欢双手环抱着膝盖的感觉；

感觉上这样就可以为自己立下结界，自我保护。

喜欢在高处双脚摇摇往下看，地理因素我占最强。但会有往下跳的冲动。

高处不胜寒但高处显得安宁，而我不安宁的心灵也会被安抚。

真的有必要做到四月半吗?是为朋友?良心?还是金钱的欲望?

喜欢躲在树下，感觉上强大粗壮的树干是我的避风港；多在树上又有掩饰的作用。

所谓:人往高处走，水往底处流，这不是人生生存的车票吗?

责任?这表面以显得不平凡的字可以杀人于无形呢! 真讽刺。。

命运被握在他人手中的感觉真差。。。

梦想与金钱不能作比较吗?

好苦涩的感觉。。。

9th

stupid wei.. damn scared.. haihz.. although i know i can't do anything n it's already became a history in my life..
but i just trying to escape from the real world..

i wish i can just stay in my own world, use my speed to move on.
enjoy the little peaceful in my dream although it's short..
maybe I'm too greedy n don wan to stay awake..

in this 2 months time I'm enjoying my work time. working really can make a person grown up in a short time..
if i never work i will never know n maybe still being a 'little girl'
think of this world just like as simple as i though but actually it's not..
u can see the ppl fighting between power n money..
drama but it's true..

pop 2 months time had pass.. n it will never come back.
i don know how tomorrow looks like but i know it's will come n i can't do anything to make it stop or pause..

ppl said life like drama but we just can't stop moving on..

don wan to let it go but can't do anything... is it because of I'm not strong enough?

but i can feel the time had knock my door n said:'time up'

i need to be stronger, i have to be stronger...

8th

my ghost.. this few day the thing that i can do to release my stress r-----
guess wat? ice-cream, chocolate n shopping. = =

ermm.. this few day i went... Puma, SubZero, SaSa, Tough, Kitschen.. lol..
super duper enjoying shopping but the money in the pocket will be another problem.. haha..
n i can't stop with chocolate n ice-cream.. sweet stuff will makes me forgot about wat is going on for now..

but getting fat lah dummyyy..

no off day for this month so now when i break time together with foong n connie we will go walk walk, window shopping n check out their new stock.. haha.. if really like it just buy lo.. haha of cause only useful stuff.. ermm.. think so..? xP

went kmg saw wendy was there also.. n the edwin arrr = = damn lame...

n i realize i quite lucky de lo..
other ppl can't get 'delivery'.. like gasoline never get delivery but maybe i lucky or something that guy maybe know I'm out of time n he offer make delivery for me..
n even pants can get delivery also.. swt'' really lazy to get it mah.. but damn cool wei~!!

**

haihz.. they're true.. wat would happen if i choose plan A n plan B?
wat I'm waiting for now?
hiahz..
actually i'm dream about my college life it's full of fun, met new ppl new stuff..
n i can go for cheer here n there bla bla bla..

now just waiting for me to throw out the letter to shop.. ''fire the boss'' xD haha
mafan lo.. they said have to do it 1 month before the date.. swt~!

i believe future is in our hand but yet sometimes we need some luck, some ppl who help us n pull us up..

But,
这世界没有偶然只有必然
i know i can make it

haihz.. damn emo wei..

7th

being super duper long never online at home a d..
last time when i online was using Jefferson's pc n online for a short while before work get started..

yeah.. new pc.. i love u~~!

Happy birthday PAPA~! love u~! kesian wei.... 38day = his birthday..

found out i'm the top sales of Feb out of so many Jefferson outlets my supervisor said 光宗燿祖 so she allow me to go back early.. XD~

28th..

Da Mouth went pyramid for Puma~!!
super duper hot n crazy.. n the dance competition feel like quite easy to win..
n when i passed by Puma my mind told me i wan that beg n my mom will like it too.. the sharp red just cough my eye ball..

4th
went mos with jefferson n wendy's friends..
1stly they said go mos n finally my parents allowed to go but have to come back before 2 something.
n went we reach there n waiting for su huey to bring us along n they said OPERA lah! we like wat the hell wei.... = = stupid lo opera Islam can't get in.. n yet we back to mos only Vivian n su huey so call adult stay there..
i like mos more still..
have fun but ain't enough.. aahhhh, that cute guy~!!! lol.. mos more young ppl but opera looks like for the ppl who really drinking only but ain't enjoy the music n the beat..

today..

went SUBZERO n show my mom the shirt that we bought at Singapore n of cause shopping there.. n the 'miss' ask me the prise or promotion or whatever n i just smile to her n said:' sorry miss but I'm not the worker here' n i just look at her face like i never do.. n she like paise n blushing n use the shirt to cover her face..

haihz too bad jefferson's uniform n sub look a like.. but r there blind? hello~? I'm holding my shopping beg..

swt''

don care the ppl who malu not me.. haha.. next, we walk in Puma n i got my dream beg~ =)
it's in red n it's a sport type beg.. the reason that i can have it is because of my mom said----------- :'okay, buy lo use ur own money at the same time borrow me..' = =
how smart. . . n now i got the mini speaker for my mp4 haha.. it's better actually especially the time before i sleep i like to play the music in my mp4.. nice~

about cheer.... i think I'm not use to bbgym style to practise..
they r totally diff from vulcanz n charm maybe because of they r new.. but make me feel that they r not really serious about the practise the training..
n i already told chee wei i will follow him run around the schools n the teams.. ahhh~! so happy =)
see, chin hau don say i left u alone again k..

n i think i had choose my way in my heart..

n yet... still no photo XD chill chill.. time will come..
but this Thursday our spm result coming out although I'm not gonna get in by Thursday but i just can't cover the nervous n the stress from my heart..

Chill... i gonna go my own way..