71st

no matter how sad i am when i with u,
u will create laughter for me..

do u know the best thing about u? is u can easily make me smile..

actually.. u never promise me anything n i don dare to ask for it too..
cause i feel wat i had now is more then over for this moment..
so really don need to rush..
enjoy the moment..
shouldn't that greedy

short n this is my feeling right now, this moment..

70th

泪水将我淹没
到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情

我才终于明白
奔不到的承诺 就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我不爱
我不痛
我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷

请告诉她
我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心说真心谎话
别告诉她
我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
别告诉她
我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

sry i might broke the promise..
although u said don cry don waste the tears but i do..
don need to say sry to me, i should thx u for being honest to me better then lie to me..
when 1st time i read the text i thought i can handle it as good as how i perform..
but when i'm alone the feeling is killing me..
its hurts, yes, it is..
nobody's wrong just u been a head of me, maybe i can't follow ur step.
u come i leave, i'm back u leave.
actually just like wat i told before.. i don expect for anything.. but maybe i just too greedy n in the end i hurt myself back..
maybe wat i had before was too much for me n now they want to take it away one by one from me..
sry i cry...

69th

I'm leaving~
never to come back again, it's just like somebody but nobody cares.
I'm telling u lies, but u think it's alright,
'cos I'm not the ppl who stay ur heart (heart) .
n now I'm leaving~ never looking back again.
so call ur shorty and I'm gonna say to u goodbye (bye)~

u said I'm pretty,
need put more confident on.
u said I'm funny,
'cos u like my lame jokes a lot.
i know u get me,
only u will continue on (on)

before u met me,
i was a lit girl.
but thing were kinda heavy,
u rise my heartbeat fast.
in next February,
i wish u're my valentine, valentine

let's go all the way tonight,
no regrets, just joys
we can dance until we die
u n i
i will tell u ily!

u make me
feel like I'm seeing u, for 1st time
they way u look at me
i can't sleep
let's runaway
n don't ever look back
don ever look back

my heart stops
when u look at me
just 1 touch
n baby i believe
this is real
so take a breath
n tell u i fall for u
yes, i fall for u!

XOXO my new hobby.. lol.. change lyrics according to my mood n my mind.. quite fun..
the short n 1st one that on top is wat i post on facebook..
the mood quite sad actually..
when the ppl that u like doesn't like u..

68th

finally i knew wat's the feeling of drinking alone..
the taste of the alcohol can't even cover the bitter of my heart....

wat can i do...

u're the heart heart heart heart heart breaker

68th

good job for the Malaysian studies assignment :)
the video was so so so nice n they act so good haha...
thx ppl :) u guys had just add on another sweet good memory in my memory land for uni's life
and lecture said the report did well also :D haha.. i did it and ching nee type it out during the jouney to KLIA professional activity..
so rush right..
n i guess all of us will got a 'not so bad' marks for malaysian studies then.
lecture like my conclusion.. so happy..
cause i tak biasa do paper work when i was in high school..
good luck in for our final assessment!
DT 37 each n everyone of us sure can end up in term6.

SHARE~ our final work

67th

so sleepy now... =O=

but i still feel like post something on my blog.. hahaha.. my conteng board =P

wish wat he told me is true.. heartbeat went fast when i saw him.. omg...
i keep the memory carefully.. miss him badly..

I'm still thinking about I'm like or fall for u..
so still waiting...
actually i thinking shall i tell u or not to tell u..?
no idea so far...

wish me luck*

66th

i know.. when u near by my heartbeat goes fast and when u walk away my heart feel empty...

i know.. i may need u to fill up the space..

sigh..

if can.. i really feel like walk away from here go for vacation or whatever but just leave

n look thru my heart to know that i like u or i fall for u?

but i know that... u does feel the same............

65th

月儿弯呀弯呀弯呀弯 将你的情话儿放我心上
月儿弯呀弯呀弯呀弯 古楼里的琴声与你把酒欢
思念的花儿一般 待放的新娘
娇媚的花儿盛放 满月落屋梁
轻轻的海风有幸福的味道
满满的悬挂 心上
夜里的花儿 月牙静静连成双
日头的花儿 只盼为你来绽放
依偎在摇椅我轻轻的唱
深深的思念 月儿了
月儿弯呀弯呀弯呀弯 将你的情话儿放我心上
月儿弯丫呀呀弯呀弯 古楼里的琴声与你把酒欢
(客家山歌 正月来思啊恋真啊真思恋
打扮啊有三妹 打扮啊有三妹
打扮来三妹 三妹过新年啊 唉哟哟都哟)
将我的脸 紧紧靠在你胸膛
让我的眼 不再为细雨茫茫
靠着你温热我静静的唱
满满的爱你听见吗

don know should be unhappy for u anot.. wat it show? wat it proved?
1stly i really sad n heart broke, but then u change ur words..
shall i trust u? haihz.. moon know my heart

64th

i miss u... but i don know whether I'm falling for u or just like this feeling...

when i found out.. i will tell..
pls don laugh

although u may just make a smile n forget it...

I'm a loser in this... yes i am.. but i do think of u....

几米说:
　　　当你喜欢我的时候，我不喜欢你，
　　　当你爱上我的时候，我喜欢上你，
　　　当你离开我的时候，我却爱上你，
　　　是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步,
　　　我们错过了诺亚方舟，错过了泰坦尼克号，
　　　错过了一切的惊险与不惊险，我们还要继续错过。
　　　我不了解我的寂寞来自何方，但我真的感到寂寞。
　　　你也寂寞，世界上每个人都寂寞，只是大家的寂寞都不同吧。

安妮宝贝说:
　　　当一个女子在看天空的时候，她并不想寻找什么。
　　　她只是寂寞。

63rd

Found out someway in facebook, chheck this out..

1.
你经常看他/她的空间。

2.
当你和他/她打电话后，你会看下通话时间。

3.
你一遍又一遍读他/她的短信。

4.
你和他/她一起走路的时候，走得很慢很慢

5.
他/她在你周围的时候，你会故意装作不在乎他/她，但当他/她离开的时候你会着急的找他/她。

6.
当你想到他的时候，你的心跳一会跳得快，一会跳得慢。

7.
你听到他/她的声音的时候会笑。

8.
当你和他/她在一起的时候，你看不见周围的所有人，你的眼中只有他/她。

9.
当你想到他/她的时候，你会听抒情的慢歌。

10.
你看到他/开心的时候，你会不自觉的扬起一丝微笑。

11.
你闻到他/她的气味就很兴奋。

13.
你意识到当你看着他/她的时候，你就在内心盘算和他/她说什么，很紧张。

14.
为了见到他/她，你会为他/她做任何事。

15.
当你读这篇文章的时候，有个人一直在你的脑中浮现。

16.
你不停的想他/她，以至于你都没有发现这里没有第十二条。

17.
你翻上去找第十二条，然后默默地笑自己...

许个愿吧，你想...

semtam d.. like wat wann wann said.. ppl's heart got no u, wat for u care about ppl so much?
make my ownself depress only..
nothing to do with u nothing at all..
i'm gonna force myself not to think of u...

62nd

I really appreciate the time when I'm with u..
although u wont know;
although u wont feel it;
although u thought I'm fooling around when we r with our friends;
although u wont know i put my eyes on u most of the time;

but i don dare to make the movement to get closer to u..
if it's a fail er... i wish i can be watching u, talk with u n that's enough..
if i fail to do that n make u scared of me pls don ignore me too...

but when i miss u and u got a feeling on me
tell me if u miss me too...

61st

I’m tired of being alone, I’m sick of being single, I think I need me a girl. I need a girl like.

One that speaks without thinking
Not a little child, but one that will embrace me yeah
Not a girl that plays around sometimes when she’s bored
But one that will only love me
Even if she stays still and guys hand her their phone
That kind of girl that will proudly take out and show my picture

Girl, I need a girl
Pretty no matter what she does
A pretty body, too
Girl, I need a girl
Baby, I need you
Girl, you need me, too

A kind of girl that looks better in jeans than a skirt
A girl that will eat the kimchi fried rice that I make instead
A girl who looks young even though she’s old
I like that kind of girl
(Know what I mean)

A girl that acts shy, but knows how to be bold
Always pretends to careful of her behavior
But when you’re with her
Hmm, why’all know what I’m talking about

Girl, I need a girl
Pretty no matter what she does
A pretty body, too
Girl, I need a girl
I like this kind of girl

Looks are not an issue
But a cute girl who knows style
Even though our hobbies are different
Our tastes are the same
A girl that I can relate to a lot
When we watch movies or listen to music

(Yes!) I love girls, girls I do adore
In front of people, she has principles as she plays
In front of me, she’s like “Ah, I don’t know”

A voice that wakes me up in the morning
(Morning Kiss) I want to start the day
I’ll learn on your knees at night
As I listen to a lullaby
I want to dream of you

Make my heart race again
Make me able to create sweet songs again

You know don’t need no more
It’s just not like that
You’re the person I want to give my heart to

Girl, I need a girl
Girl, I get, gotta make you’re mine
I’m treat you right, baby

Girl, I need a girl
Pretty no matter what she does
A pretty body, too
Girl,, I need a girl
Baby, I need you
Girl, you need me too

Girl, I need a girl
Girl, I need a girl

Girl, are you listening to me?
Baby, I need you
Girl, you need me, too

Girl, I need a girl

-TaeYang-

I'm so happy that we had a good time =) i don know his mind maybe not as good as wat i though but enough to make me happy. try to be normal whenever we met...
kinda sad huh.. heartbeat goes fast when i saw him n will feel disappointed when i never met him especially the day that i bll (DT37 words xP)

oh no.. my skin type getting sensitive! wat the hell.. so ugly....... still can't find out wat i sensitive on.. sigh...
need to get a solution out.. baby i need u, boy u need me too...

60th

他应该不会想到在我脑海里的人会是他吧。。

我真是个奇怪的人。。。

我在难为我自己了，
以前也从没问过你怎样想我，我好看吗，甚至是撒撒娇。以前的我真是不懂这些呢。
都过去了。如果是现在的我在那时的情行应该不会生气。。不懂不懂

手机还一样呢。。。。

在想为什么那时没回你的信息呢？

忘了。。。我朋友都说我变得很懒惰回信息了呢。。 是吗。。



做自己好了。。把你埋在心里吗。。？

go go go! assessment assessment......

59th

我好讨厌这样的自己。。。
我不只到我要做什么， 虽然在某一些地方已经有了方向但是有些东西好像不懂飞去那里了。。
如果说这是个天平那么我永远都得不到我要的东西吧。
又或者得到后，坏的那一方面在好的完了才来。

真差劲。

是太过靠感觉了吗？

好想好想有个肩膀可以靠一下而已。。 累了。睡吧。。。。

58th

went charm all star practise last Thursday and i'm lost in don't know where and make me turned for an hour

it was fun.. end up in the segi pool.. lolx~~

Thursday -- kena throw to the pool
Friday -- kena bully by my cousins and jump into the waterfall
Saturday -- lepak day
Sunday -- end up OH NO.. geo..

share the new sweet songs that makes me melt.. it's still 2pm


Even If You Leave Me (Translation)

Even if you leave me, I'll be happy if I'm able to just watch you, that's all I need
Even if you're in the arms of another, I'll be happy, I'll be happy if you just remember, that's all I need
No mater where you are, don't get hurt. Don't skip meals because you want to diet. You have to smile more in front of that person, prettily.

If, by chance, you miss me, listen to this song. If that person hurts you, listen to this song (no no)
If you keep missing me, sing this song. It's my last gift prepared for you. (bye bye)

If that person asks about me, just say you don't know anything. It's okay for you to.
If I can't hold back and end up calling you at night, making you cry, ask that person to stay by your side.

Don't look back at such a unfortunate person like me. You don't even have to remember me, it's not like I left any traces.
I never even did anything for you anyway so just turn back.
Even this feeling of longing has become a luxury so just erase me.
Live happily, please. Just live happily for yourself.
Forget something like me and live happily, live happily

I'm sorry that I can't be by your side




Even If You Leave Me (Romanization)

niga nareul tteonado neol jikyeo bol su itdamyeon nan haengbokhae nan haengbokhae geugeollo dwae
dareun pume angyeodo nal gieokhago itdamyeon nan haengbokhae nan haengbokhae geugeollo dwae
eodiseodeun apeuji malgo sal ppaen dago bap gurmji malgo geu saram apeseo deo deo useo jwoya hae yeppeuge

hoksi naega geuriul ttaen i norael deureo geu sarami apeugehal ttaen i norael deullyeojwo (sirheo sirheo)
jakku naega bogopeul ttaen i norael bulleo neol wihae junbihan nae majimak seonmureul (annyeong annyeong)

geu sarami gakkeumeun nareul mureo bondamyeon moreunda hae beoryeotda hae geuraedo dwae
hoksirado naega mot chama bamsae neoui jeonhwal ullimyeon geu saram gyeoteuroga jikyeo dallahae wo~wo

dora bojima nagachi bulhaenghan nom gieokhal pillyodo eobseo heunjeokdo eobseul mom
eochapi haejun geotdo eobseo kkalkkeumhage doraseo
geuriumdo sachingeol wanjeonhi nal jiwo haengbokhage sara jwo jebal geureoke neoreul wihae sara
nagateun geon ije ijeo haengbokhage sara haengbokhage sara

mianhae ni gyeote isseo jul suga eobseo

57th

佛陀弟子阿难出家前，在道上见一少女，从此爱慕难舍。

佛祖问他，你有多喜欢此女？  

阿难回答：

“我愿化身石桥，受五百年风吹，五百年日晒，五百年雨打， 但求此少女从桥上走过。” 

有个年轻美丽的女孩，出身豪门，家产丰厚，又多才多艺，日子过得很好。
媒婆也快把她家的门槛给踩烂了，但她一直不想结婚，因为她觉得还没见到她真正想要嫁的那个男孩。
直到有一天，她去一个庙会散心，于万千拥挤的人群中，看见了一个年轻的男人，不用多说什么，反正女孩觉得那个男人就是她苦苦等待的结果了。
可惜，庙会太挤了， 她无法走到那个男人的身边，就这样眼睁睁的看着那个男人消失在人群中。
后来的两年里，女孩四处去寻找那个男人，但这人就像蒸发了一样，无影无踪。
女孩每天都向佛祖祈祷，希望能再见到那个男人。
她的诚心打动了佛祖，佛祖显灵了。
佛祖说：“你想再看到那个男人吗？”
女孩说：“是的！我只想再看他一眼！”
佛祖：”你要放弃你现在的一切，包括爱你的家人和幸福的生活。”
女孩：“我能放弃！”
佛祖：“你还必须修炼五百年道行，才能见他一面。你不后悔么？”
女孩：“我不后悔！”
女孩变成了一块大石头，躺在荒郊野外，四百多年的风吹日晒，苦不堪言，但女孩都觉得没什么，难受的是这四百多年都没看到一个人，看不见一点点希望，这让她都快崩溃了。
最后一年，一个采石队来了，看中了她的巨大，把她凿成一块巨大的条石，运进了城里，他们正在建一座石桥，于是，女孩变成了石桥的护栏。
就在石桥建成的第一天，女孩就看见了，那个她等了五百年的男人！
他行色匆匆，像有什么急事，很快地从石桥的正中走过了，当然，他不会发觉有一块石头正目不转睛地望着他。
男人又一次消失了，再次出现的是佛祖。
佛祖：“你满意了吗？”
女孩：“不！为什么？为什么我只是桥的护栏？如果我被铺在桥的正中，我就能碰到他了，我就能摸他一下！”
佛祖：“你想摸他一下？那你还得修炼五百年！”
女孩：“我愿意！”
佛祖：“你吃了这么多苦，不后悔？”
女孩：“不后悔！”
女孩变成了一棵大树，立在一条人来人往的官道上，这里每天都有很多人经过，女孩每天都在近处观望，但这更难受，因为无数次满怀希望的看见一个人走来，又无数次希望破灭。
不是有前五百年的修炼，相信女孩早就崩溃了！
日子一天天的过去，女孩的心逐渐平静了，她知道，不到最后一天，他是不会出现的。
又是一个五百年啊！最后一天，女孩知道他会来了，但她的心中竟然不再激动。
来了！他来了！他还是穿着他最喜欢的白色长衫，脸还是那么俊美，女孩痴痴地望着他。
这一次，他没有急匆匆的走过，因为，天太热了。
他注意到路边有一棵大树，那浓密的树荫很诱人，休息一下吧，他这样想。
他走到大树脚下，靠着树根，微微的闭上了双眼，他睡着了。
女孩摸到他了！他就靠在她的身边！
但是，她无法告诉他，这千年的相思。她只有尽力把树荫聚集起来，为他挡住毒辣的阳光。
千年的柔情啊！
男人只是小睡了一刻，因为他还有事要办，他站起身来，拍拍长衫上的灰尘，在动身的前一刻，他抬头看了看这棵大树，又微微地抚摸了一下树干，大概是为了感谢大树为他带来清凉吧。
然后，他头也不回地走了！就在他消失在她的视线的那一刻，佛祖又出现了。
佛祖：“你是不是还想做他的妻子？那你还得修炼……”
女孩平静地打断了佛祖的话：“我是很想，但是不必了。”
佛祖：“哦？”
女孩：“这样已经很好了，爱他，并不一定要做他的妻子。”
佛祖：“哦！”
女孩：“他现在的妻子也像我这样受过苦吗？”
佛祖微微地点点头。
女孩微微一笑：“我也能做到的，但是不必了。”
就在这一刻，女孩发现佛祖微微地叹了一口气，或者是说，佛祖轻轻地松了一口气。
女孩有几分诧异，“佛祖也有心事么？”
佛祖的脸上绽开了一个笑容：“因为这样很好，有个男孩可以少等一千年了，他为了能够看你一眼，已经修炼了两千年。”

56th

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think that she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are


Just the way u r from Bruno Mars... really like it.. romantic? kind of =)

be just the way u r.. natural u.. without acting or watever.. real u.. n never change for anything one.. non of them understand more then u.. the life style that make u happy.. hold it, it's ur life..

tired day.. good night sweet heart... i gonna go to bed with the song now =)

55th

ahhhaaa!!

today in taylor's we got the polo car road show.. i don really know wat is it..
but well.. after malaysian study we got no accounting class until 2.30 so we just walk slow, eat slow n watch show! xD

n ya.. we saw the polo car road show..
n the camera man ask me to join i was huh? no i can't i can't..
haha. after a while that's a guy showing beatboxing skill in the roadshow..
*btw, for thw top5 who got the most "like" for their performing video will got RM1k for reward*

n ya.. i feel that................ my classmate CAN DO BETTER THEN HIM.. haha..
so we just call him n help him fill up the form n he's IN.. hahaaaaaa..

then when Jun came he just wan to know who did the beatbox? xD i just answer : u can do so much better then him :)

he joined last min nnnnnnnnnnnn he did a great job!!! n cause he was so blur n don even know wat competition is it n he just did a performance Dylan n Andy helped him to asked for a 2nd chance to redo it :) nice one JUN!!!

he is so good in learning other language as well haha..
his gf so cute ~~

in class, Mr.Toney was late.. n thankx to Andy have a fun time with us xD
Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby

n Chris!!! told u don kacau when i'm driving~!! see, jun join ur game now!! X_X


i love my class DT37

54th

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

that's no hottie in singapore.. poor thing.. well, this trip i never met any prettie n hottie in the city..
but last time i do.. sighh...

Sparks fly
It's like electricity
I might die when I forget how to breath
You get closer
And there's no where in this world I'd rather be
Time stops
Like everything around me is frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you'd open my mind to things I've never seen

54th

yo yo~ it's vacation!

I'm the the top city of South East Asia~ S.I.N.G.A.P.O.R.E

[llllllllllll ]80% loading .... it's not over.. it just brand new starting point

after i end my vacation term2 coming =)


will be continue. . . . ...

53th

happy~ today is my last day of term1 in Taylor's..
n i actually pass my geo~~ wwweeeee~~
after test i went redbox together with connie, foong, xin n kc~
actually ching nee they all also went redbox but we had book thru the phone call..

N................

we got an AMAZING room! this room can fit more then 20 ppl i guess =)~~

it got 2 tvs, bars, large sofa (i actually rolling on it hehe) and a mini state~ check this out!

it's the bar.. just pretending xD

connie & xin

guess wat song i'm singing? (let me figure it out xD too many songs.. drama queen~~)

SS in the toilet.. "as usual~~"

gold fish o^^o

i like this xD.. 1st time take picture like "this"

the 4 in the house~ tall to short xP i'm evil..

foong foong.. big fan of lee hom

kc be the camera man xD

big big big big sofa ever in redbox~~

connieee

this time xin be the camera man XD

really thank you guys.. enjoying the time that we together =) proved that buddy 4ever.. singk kaki~!!

miss high school time n miss u guys always..

n today i'm totally out!! maybe is because of friends, maybe is because of exam over, maybe because of i pass my geo, maybe because of i'm not thinking about any other else other then throw myself into the songs n mood =)

well~ as long as.. WE R HAPPY~ if we r happy now, wat else matter? :)

52th

so fast.... =(
my term 1 of college life end soon..
1stly was alone then get to know new friends, new subject, new building..
life style had change..
feel bored of driving.. yadayada..
n now.. 2 more days..
n say bye to the pass.. don look back.. keep forward..

some human said don look back! face the future..
but some how.. if u don look back.. how u know wat u actually lefting behind u..?

i really enjoying class in DT37.. although have to be formal everyday.. heels.. killing me in the 1st mouth.. == snail speed lift.. n soon DT37 will split into 2 groups.. sigh.. why...... but everyone knew wat's the problem right.. n i really really enjoy the time that we had been together.. stuck in hostel, sleep in hostel, visiting ppl's hostel xD fun though.. also really enjoy DT34 trip.. best trip ever.. n get to know wat is college life all about.. thx..

trying my best to work on for my life.. holding something on hand.. don feel like giving up since train for so many year.. ermm.. time will choose for me..

feel so tired nowadays.. zzZZ

51th

maybe I'm the one who expecting too much..
feel like listen to the sound of sea wave......

50th

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到
心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己
像是空气
大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我
笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑
最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意
听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望
装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情

49th

dear diary...

I'm gonna make them regret..

we're gonna make them regret for it, okay?

alright...

i will be here for u..

so don cry....

the pain from the heart will gone k;

after u face the pain from the body..

don cry.. not deserve.. at all...

wrap of Ur tears let's do it again..

49th

---dear diary...,

i'm upset.. really upset..

i don wan to give up, i never ask to give up in this sport..
really.. if i wan to give up 4years or 5years ago i will already let it go.. but i hold it until today..
maybe i pause after SPM was wrong....
i shouldn't pause.. pause doesn't mean stop right..

this year finally i step back on the mat.. realize.. everything change...

last time in school team girls need to base base base base..
now they wan girl fly fly fly fly..

CHARM i really don know wat to say.. i wan to try but in this moment everything make me hard to cross this line...

some says, they only care about team A

some says, they only care about the boys n the girl who can fly very well n flexible n they look at weight nyadayada..
so? not i don wan to fly right.. in high school who wan to base me? boys n girls split into 2 n do their own stuff.. weight i really don know wat to say.. i'm speechless.. totally..
now wat i'm trying to do is stretch my leg every night before i sleep.. stretching my non-usual leg..
back hand spring i tried before wat.. thx to don know who say stop n just leave it..

i'm not blaming anyone here diary.. i just... i just upset..

it used to be wat i proud of.. but now..... ya.. when i'm in high school..
i don wan to give it up....... i'm so down.................
i bleed, i cry, all the pain, all the injury.... sigh..

*smile*
but i guess they might be saying.. so? so wat? everyone do not only u..

///// rannie day;
\\\\\\ rannie heart;
//////

in this moment my heart is bleeding...........
this feeling make me feel that i'm so useless........
in this moment my confident all gone... gone
u r so cruel... to me......
i never ever feel this way before.. fail! wat i build up for so many years now i feel like it's all drop!
u make me so down CRUEL U! *tears drop*

48th

i used to be a normal girl with normal friends, normal family, normal life...
it had change since 9 years ago..
i move away from my usual place from here to there..
have to be independent or else nothing i can do..

thw world is cruel when i'm in primary, in high school, move on to work, now college......
u can't 100% guess ppl's mind..
u can still guess but.... always try to keep the last card to ur self.. no all-in

primary to high school now college..
not used to camera now i do
not used to smile now i do
not used to this not used to that..
not used to be too friendly now i still.....

someone said i'm talk a lot... in my heart was thinking: i don think u wan to know how i looks when i'm quiet.
used to be cold...
used to be a damn it dumb stupid girl who easy control by other ppl now i don't...
at lease at this moment..
i don know..

sometimes.. when i'm mad... i'm not really show n the devil will pop out n talk to me..
go ahead, u r right n they r wrong.. why r u keeping it to urself.. u r cruel.. to ur own self! u shall love urself more n don really bother about them..
angel will said: don keep it in ur heart tell them in a good way although they wont listen..

but i guess i more to the devil side.. i shall keep some for it.. *silent*
when u met the person same as u only u will feel it..
others if it bother u, u can throw it to the trashcan

i am still me.. but now i'm in the 50 50 world..
when i got it until 85 n i'm will be the winner

--dear diary, u r the one who understand me the most--

47th

just feel like post something here but i have no idea about wat to post actually..
happiness or sadness?
it's so complicated... *sigh*

in this moment i feel like post something happy like my college life, new friends, connie, foong, Penang trip fun..

but now I'm not really happy..
i am not happy.
*sigh*
something bothering me

aarrrgghhh.. 难道这是18岁的烦恼？有够白痴 ==

aahhh.. let's talk about happy thingy lah..
well.. let's welcome the DT37 haha..
i meet a lot of friends they all very fun funny.. ermm.. ya.. haha

Ching Nee.. from SRJK(C)Sungai Way.. wth right.. i also cannot remember her face.. wkaka...n she's the boy boy (u will find out why) orang jepun.. i 'za' her during the independent day.. u know how japan fight with tanah melayu ar? Merdeka!! hahaaaaa

Maliewann.. Mixture baby from local Thailand n local Chinese.. so she's local don ask her anything about Thailand she don know, ok.. don bully my friend lah.. xD

PeiLy.. homesick baby from Pahang.. cheer up girl.. cry can call us de mah =)

Si Pei.. the “放肆”creator.. cute n blur nuts
[this is roughly the ppl that i mix with or sit with in class lol]

Dylan.. Jellyfish from Penang. the girl girl xD video maker, hardworking =)
Chris Na... Sodium? haha to much chemistry then.. CheSong Oppa ^^ whenever he call me throw the phone i told myself have to use Korean n said yoposeyo? but fail always, cause i do HELLO? omggg.. FAILLL.. ei ei but he safe my life during lagoon le..
YouJun.. the pro of presentation.. everytime ChiChi i don know wat to do but in the end.. ==
Epoi, Kelly, Andy n others the fun kaki.. haha.. in class we have to try our best to speak the proper English because some of them wont understand ==
so.. ya.. try ur best..

andddd... the DT34! our senior lah actually..
JC--- Miss.Taylor's 2010
Vanessa---- mixture baby of indian n chinese.. state swimmer.. friendly :)
izwan--- same hometown with me.. during the penang trip we both suddenly hometown sick when we passed by perak.. omgg..
ofcasue that's more but i don know the name.. haha

N Maliewann, Ching Nee n I met the 'monkey', 'banana tree' and the 'banana' during the DT34 penang trip..
Vanessa so happy when she saw 6 of us became friends. lolx.. i know the feeling.. haha
haha.. we always say.. the monkey hide behind the banana tree n eating banana.. xD
fun..

ya.. and that's all the new faces that i met in Taylor's.. hhuuu~~~

11 days of holidays for Raya.. 6 days working... haihz..
miss connie n foong so badly.. but at lease we met...

---continue.....---

46th

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

never think that i will reopen my blog with this kind of mood.. i though i wil post something else which is more to happy side..
see, u just can't guess the world.

突然有一天想通了不会有结局，
不一样的观点，不一样的思想
只会让事情更难堪
好的朋友 不一定是好的情人
而不好的朋友 不一定是不好的情人
当时玩笑开大了。。好累

45th

California girls
We're unforgettable
Daisy Dukes
Bikinis on top
Sun-kissed skin
So hot
We'll melt your Popsicle
Oooooh oh oooooh


so long never update my bloggy d.. oh well, college term1 get start..
wearing formal to class everyday [don ask me why]

today is orangdation party n tomorrow world stage!!!!!!!!!
wuuuhoooo!

i can't wait i can't wait

Tokio Hotel

the california girl Katy Perry

thanks suann papa!!! love u muax muax muax muax!!

back to college.. i think my group were quite friendly n in class we have a litter group already.. haha.. not really but we girls like to sit together..

n English will be the 1st very 1st language in our class second for me it's Mandarin :)
my class was quite international ppl coming from every way but not only Malaysian unlike other subject like SAM all that bla bla bla.. Yen Lin's class only Malaysian, smart Malaysian.. A(s) hunter

alright, for the class so far i feel it's ok.. (just the air condition some time it's not functioning =.=) when the temperature increase our focus decrease.. sad ya haha.. same to the lecture xP

well, is it because of the 'power' of MTV world stage 2010 Live in Malaysia i keep singing California Girl n keep shouting Tokio Hotel! wwuuhhooo aaahhhaaa aha aha aahaaa
HERE WE COME!

44th

working? world stage?
enjoy? money?
wat the hack.. i work for long enough a d lo.. but event job is wat i looking for.. [never try b4 mah..]
haihz.. but world stage one year once n tokio hotel~ Katy perry~~

btw, it's my 2nd day of college d..
as i know.. my class will be quite international..
today the tourism theory should be end at 1p.m. but who know the lecture talk about 15min then finish d.. cause we r too quite n no questions.. when he knows it's only 10.45a.m. he said we can have a longer time to enjoy our meal, eat slowly... haha that's how Frances ppl doing..

today when Sunway to gave a surprise to him xD
SURPRISE~~
but kar xin actually wearing the Taylor's t-shirt n i'm holding the Taylor's water bottle n it cause us so embarrassing.. walk around in Sunway.. but actually human be lah will compare btw Taylor's n Sunday.. lol..
seen tired.. rest more le bendan == panda eye so cham d

2nd day of school, n those ppl start telling us all the rules thingy d.. wat the....... haihz the dress code.. n the examination.... sigh sigh..
*scary*

chill chill.. second day only le pls..
tired.. sleep soon..
cya~

43rd

alright.. how long i never touch my blog already? erm.. watever..
rather writing other then typing the keyboard.. but ya, I'm typing..
well, remind me of replacing the some post for Cheer 2010 one, Bon Odori one, Twilight Saga one, ermm.. that's all i guess..

Happy happy birthday to Steven Tai~~~
20th a d.. n his bday was his 1st day of degree xD
he will remember it i guess =P

haha.. today was Out.. my 'kaki' all met in one day..

[no ranking pls.. ;)]

kaki gang no.1
Connie, kar foong, hui xin
seafield kaki
girls talk girls talk n girls talk.. shopping, shooting kaki forever... other then this, singK also is our fav XD

kaki gang no.2
kar xin, steven tai
kaki lepak no.1.. yamcha n drive around.. funny.. taylor's + seafield kaki make us like to yamcha together xD

kaki gang no.3
chee leong
event, event n event.. this guy don know ajak me for event how many years a d..

kaki gang no.4
siew wei, chi chung, mervyn, jee hong
another gang of yamcha.. although we long time met once but we enjoy the time that we had.. all diff college diff location.. lol.. rojak?

this wednesday ur Miss. Chi Kei finally (ya ya.. i knew kar foong they all very happy about it ==) going to college already.. swt right.. register since march but July start school..
well well well, wat can i do ya? but lucky in taylor's still got kar xin n steven.. don know anything or before i got friends still can ask them for help.. thx thx.. u know.. i easy go sesat xD
the 2 inch GPS might not use full if i got it xD

[PS: i guess i own my blog one more post very soon... TAYLOR'S.. (not the twilight guy ok..)]
so small n shouting left! left! left!! haha..
well, it's a jok between my mumy n i xP

42nd

7/7 looks like logo of lighting isn't?
but ya.. today was a rainnie day..

today early in the morning not really in good mood ==
thinking a lot about this weekends.. lol..

stupid ppl keep stealing CKjeans items! sozai lo.. if no money don wear lah wat for be a thief??
cause bad mood..

tired of working.. ouch.... oh my.. it's another full shift..
casue bad mood..

kena FFk [k lah i know it's raining..]
cause bad mood..

meng zeng d..

call tak kena, text no reply
cause bad mood..

totally up = makes me take a lot of chocolate food n sugar.. --> high per swt"
[u know when i'm in bad mood use to take sweet stuff ==]
feels bad cause angry of him for no reason.. lol.. my bad my bad..
call my dad to kacau him xD

he said if spain lose he don wan to work for half day to show his sadness xD do it if u dare.. wkakakaaa..
Netherlands won with 3-2.. oh my...
i keep talk good about CK Jeans until he feel like trying CK Jeans n give up LIVE'S d.. haha..
ei ei CK Jeans more expensive le.. but more comfortable X)

tonight [or maybe morning] will be a Spain night or Germany night?
check it out then :) 2am Malaysia time.. sleeping time haha..


WAKA WAKA eh eh.. this time for Afica FIFA 2010

41st

No I can't forget this evening Or your face as you were leaving But I guess that's just the way The story goes You always smile but in your eyes Your sorrow shows Yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow When I think of all my sorrow When I had you there But then I let you go And now it's only fair That I should let you know What you should know

I can't live If living is without you I can't live I can't give anymore I can't live If living is without you I can't give I can't give anymore

Well I can't forget this evening Or your face as you were leaving But I guess that's just the way The story goes You always smile but in your eyes Your sorrow shows Yes it shows

I can't live If living is without you I can't live I can't give any more I can't live If living is without you I can't give I can't give anymore

***

Too much of anything can make you sick
Even the good can be a curse
Makes it hard to know which road to go down
Knowing too much can get you hurt

Is it better? Is it worse?
Are we sitting in reverse?
It's just like we're going backwards
I know where I want this to go
Driving fast but let's go slow
What I don't wanna do is crash, no

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

***

went lagoon today.. it's raining day but it's fine for me..

hope i wont fall sick CKJeans having Sells now ==

miss u caramel..

hope u never fall sick too.. take care..

40th

父亲节快乐！！
爸爸，祝你身体健康！

今天我遇到天使喔。
他是客人两岁半的儿子，好可爱哦。
他都不怕生，他妈妈说其实他是看心情的 =)
一开始有些害羞但后来逗了他一会儿就放松了。
他说他3岁但给我5个手指，应该是还不灵活吧
后来说他1岁，我就说1岁的手指不是这样的
然后他妈妈说他2岁半了，我就帮他把手指弄成V型说他2岁；然后像和外星人一样和他的小手连在一起×Ting×
他笑得好纯洁，好可爱。
他拉着我,小手拉大手看着更衣间的镜子微笑。
他也不管他爸妈了，他爸妈也放心地看衣服。

我蹲下和他说话，他要我抱他起来，怕瓜田李下，我一会儿就放他下来了。
他看着我，眨着小眼，可爱的抱了我一下。
他用他的的小手摸我的脸颊，被我逗着笑了。

临走前还拥抱了我几次，吻了一下我的脸颊才离开。
还跟错人说再见，去和妈妈说再见。

单纯，可爱的笑容真迷人。
小孩子只在乎你发自内心的笑容来给予安全感，不会想太多什么金钱，地位。。
那份可贵的心，天使的心。


PS：不晓得我的小孩有没有那么可爱和漂亮 xP

39th

--GAME OVER--

38th

i guess it's time to update my litter bloggy d... since like now got a topic to blog about...
finally it's the day to alor star for cooc's ( my auntie) wedding..
woke up in 4 something in the morning n reach airport around 6.. lol..
wat u guys were doing in 6 in the morning look at my face n my 'gold fish' eye then know a d..
the the van who sent us there was so.............. . . . anyways just make u can't sleep..

they said don bring yellow n red shirt to thailand but i brought a red bag n red shoes.. swt''

jun wei my litter cousin..

morning~ **sleepy

it's airasia.. it looks like cotton candy isn't?

for the 1st day we went perlis all the way from kedah.. n it's so tiring.. haihz.. we all already not enough sleep n rest lah pls.. == but still.. we went a gunung ( 4got the name) n padi muzinum..
btw, here is paddy every way.. i promise..

2nd day.. finally.. n this time we be the sister again to block the door n get some angpao xD

but 1st angpao..... RM2??!! wat the?? n he said he took the wrong one.. lucky.. or else just lock u outside n don't think about married xD

n we got some idea to kacau my uncle xD wearing a 'cute' (ugly but not so adorable) mask to dance Bad Romance by Lady Gaga n Nobody by Wonder Girl..
Result came out... : he not good in dancing.. n the best man never help at all.. wat a good friend man..

look at my auntie also know how funny is it a d xD

wedding dinner at night.. n the food is.......... Halal.. kinda SWT"" but we r at kedah so.. understand~~

the 'chee' cheerleaders

serena.. my cousin from singapore

went thailand next day.. but for half a day only ==

cause the car from thailand can't come in m'sia n same as m'sia car can't go into thailand.. n my very 1st thailand trip been use in hap zai pasar ==

kind of swt n sad case.. but it's a quite special expired..
they got not much thing to buy for me...

after cross this line~~ land of thai~
cocacola bottle in ori n thai style~ my grandma as background xD

so adorable!!!!

enjoying cutting price right here.. we had try cut the price for my hill from 280thai become 200thai n for my shirt from 80thai for neck lacks, 230thai a dress n 180thai from shirt became 50thai fro each neck lacks, 200thai fro dress n 150 for shirt..

the ppl in hap zai very nice.. althought u only have a look but never buy they also wont show u a long face =) i like it.. n right here u can speck chinese, hok ken then can talk a d xD

n the thai words that i had learn from the ppl in thailand was 'loot' means hot.. xD swt'' right.. the weather really really hot!! but still can tahan lo.. it's time to say hi to m'sia n say bye to thailand~

i miss thailand its a good place =)

but ofcause i miss my bed more.. tiring~~!!
going back with plan also.. but back with firefly.. firefly actually smaller then airasia but they have a good smile.. aiya.. forgot to try shopping on air == well.. never mind..

look! the sky, the sea n the land in the same picture!! enjoying~~

**

wednesday as usual swimming with su ann.. this time.. i fetch her.. hehe.. luycky she never vomit or dizzy or watever.. haha,.

we both r M.A.C lover.. they r really friendly n wont force us to buy n give good advice to us.. love MAC.. btw, where can i get a "I LOVE M.A.C" t-shirt?

Su Ann we will go kalaok together one day.. lol..

**

a chocolate bring us back together =)

37th

June... one n half more months to go..

so fast.. 2010 half year pass a d... get older faster?? no no no!!
well, coming soon event in my family will be my youngest auntie wedding =)
haha wish can ask her wat's the feeling of end up her single life +D

n for Vulanz!!
I'm so proud of u guys for did a great job in S.O.X finals!!
we r waiting for so many years for a tittle of best showmanship!!
I'm sorry about i can't be there.. Agong's birthday can't off..
hard work will pay.. work harder girls n boys!!
enjoy ur cheer camp =)
eat, sleep, CHEER!!
n don miss facebook so much lah == it's only 3 days per year

btw, i love the cheer bottles :)

36th

Yeah~~ 老板万岁！
爸爸最好了～～ XD

万岁 万岁 万岁～！

35th

well.... it's Wednesday n su ann n i went 3k to have some moves again..

haha we meet the same uncle xD

so paise..

1. we swam
2. su ann ter-kena my hand once
3. we laugh in the pool n nearly drink the disgusting pool water
4. i ter-kick su ann's nose once
5. i (again) ter-kick su ann's nose
6. n she don wan to swim at the back xD
7. lazy move out from the pool
8. have our own sweet time in the toilet (shut, where's my tower ==)
9. eat in 3k again == every week we do

this time we watch movie after 3k, it's movie day = Wednesday~ cheaper..

have a walk in pyramid.. n we found out it's hand to not passing by MAC n SaSa.. T.T but of cause we do control our self xP

n chee leong join us also.. forgot to say that n sorry to say that he been forgotten when we r in the DVD shop..

actually it's not the 1st time su ann n chee leong watch movie haha don know how many years ago we watch harry potter together..

movie start n we r still noisy.. the stupid chee leong keep giving out comment.. u r fifi lah dumb dumb

the cat so cute~~~~~~~~~ big n watery eyes.. adorable!!

n we want to watch toy story3!!!!!

34th

真的很无奈， 你不高兴可以说出来但， 为什么你就是喜欢给脸色我看？
如果我给回你看，我想你应该会一巴掌扫过来了吧！

我不是喜欢哭的人，但 为什么？想到你们就会哭？不争气
i try to do my best for u 你看到吗？

在你眼里有我吗？吃饭多一双筷子？晒多一件衣服？还是多一个人做家务？

你女儿做了校队你有开心吗？你女儿做了队长你有骄傲吗？你一点好话都没有说，还教训我？？
但当你儿子做了副队长你却说要庆祝。
我去过那么多比赛和表演你一个也没看，只弹不赞。

我可以因为你不喜欢而放我朋友鸽子，因为你一句话故意陪你聊天看电视怕你闷。。
人家说你疼我 对不起我看不到。
只要你高兴一通电话要我回家，好我到了家，家里一个人都没有，没晚餐但又不给我和朋友吃，自己吃饱了回到家叫我和弟弟的朋友吃。我和他们很熟吗
你心情好就会睬我，买东西给我和我聊天；不好就要我死一边。
知道你辛苦爸爸在国外要独立，六年级到现在出街的交通和用的钱都是自己，巴士迟了还要被骂，说我往外跑再跑就打断我的脚。不管你是在什么情况下说，我还是会不开心的好吗？
我不像弟弟会拍马屁，不会逗你开心。但不可以否认我在乎这个家。
不可以对你乱发脾气，不可以对你大声嚷嚷，选择不要和你闹忍下来 你又有话吵！拿东西说我发死鬼脾气丢东西， 关门太大声 说我不服气，说错话又说我没用脑，不对又要赶快换去开玩笑的语气。。

你要整样？我也长大有我自己的思想了。。 或许在你眼里我不会想 但 我也会不开心的 我很羡慕我的朋友们自己有决定权 是因为之前我让你太放心而弄到你现在不放心吗？
wat do u wan from me? 不要说没要求，你的没要求就是最大的要求

哭的样子真难看，丑死了。。

33rd

suann just went back.. ~~~

n today she show me the gummy bear song.. which is..
quite cute but she makes me sing along.. WTH~~~

went 3K.. tired.. but still we went pyramid xD~ M.A.C n also sasa.. xoxo Suann..
n also Anna Sui..

n we wait for the bus for so damn long~~~~~~ ==

ya.. so... while online we open our blog n she say my layout sound wrong.. i was??? huh???
Wanna be on top? [actually i got this line from America Next Top Model]
so..... i got no idea... just change it to one of my post which is i post it few days ago on facebook..

well.. tired.. chou

32nd

i love those love songs nowadays i don know why..
mood change maybe.. nowadays that always in my mind.. shh..
he wont knows.. he's dumb.. stupid..

hope he wont scared of me after he notes.. =(

actually be with him make me believe in forever.. lol..

I'm a bad bad person.. i knew, n also greedy

really love those lovely songs..
hey soul sister n Lucky.. i knew i love u, how do i live, my heart will go on, without u.. nice..

lucky I'm in love with my best friend

lol.. ppl will change.. maybe he or she is ur bff last time but maybe few years never met they will never be the same.. i guess lah.. don know how about others..

but maybe for me in the end become 'Nothing on U'..

beautiful girl all over the world i could be chasing but my time will be wasting they got nothing on u baby.. nothing on u baby.. u might just say hi n they might say hey.. they got nothing on u baby.....

she's always on my mind,
from the time i wake up
'till i close my eyes
she's everywhere i go
she's all i know

though she's so far away
it's just keeps getting stronger
every day
and even now she's gone
i'm still holding on

so tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

chorus:
maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

my friends keep telling me
that if you really love her
you've gotta set her free
and if she returns in kind
i'll know she's mine

so tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

chorus

why i live in despair
'cause wide awake or dreaming
i know she's never there
and all these time i act so brave
i'm shaking inside
why does it hurt me so...

chorus

heaven knows