The last outing in CNY holidays 2009 =P

LOL..
so tired..
after come back from perak rest, second day than have outing with classmates..

i got a Dong Bang Shin Ki angpou packet from foong foong!!!!!
so happy.. my chang-min oppa~~!!
i love DBSK, i love chang-min oppa~**
i like SHINee~ big bang~
ALL THEM HOT!!

haha..
actually i am very happy about this, hehe
we went redbox karaok, but when i was singing n enjoying my own time i saw a stupid shit face inside my eyes..
WTF.. spoil my mood man..
all my friends call me clam down LOL..
during that time i was thinking i was really really blind last time..

but after that i got lagi high in the room..
so wat! i'm still a rock start! n i don need u tonight!!!!!

them lot them lot of rock songs..
i don love u, this love, so wat, girlfriend!! n lucky i still having my voice haha XDD
that's good that's good..

next day i went 2 house party..
both also quite fun 1 is birthday+new year =.='' another is just new year n get crazy..
i stay until about 12.30 only rech home LOL kena by my mum haha but after i explain to her she ok ok lo..
the 1st house is about playing, gambling n bullying.. swt' swt' swtttt''

second 1 is we playing firewood, thinking about the cheer thinking...
n my 1st black jake in 2009!!!! wohoo..
n 1st time i drink.. a bit only lah..
haha i still can walk the ''straight'' line..
LOL..i know my own limit man..

i like night more than day..
night look more beautiful than day..
haha.. vampire.. haha XDD

Happy CNY!!!!!!

rush back between jb n ipoh..
lol..
so tired but so fun..
thankx daddy thankx for the phone~~
i love u so much.. mum don jealous i love u too...
haha XDDD

jb i look them "adult" cause my 3 cute n evil litter cousins too small..
no mood play with them when i was reading my novel..
i'm so bad... wat to do.. after i finish only kacau me lah ><
the ppl in the novel deathing le..

lol.. CNY man...
still a life still a life..

jumping every way in ipoh...
cause all cousin almost same age haha..
gambling everyday..
haha..
no gambling no life in chinese new year!!!!


but everyday just eat eat eat....
so worry about my weight
but...
who care lah.. after CNY only keep wkakakakaka..

long time never see my cousin n also my cat liao..
miss u all soooo much ><

had u see cat shower before?

haha.. my cat did..
LOL

lazy cat only sleep n eat.. n..... bite me T.T
wuuuuwuuuuu...
stupid cat..
another cat which is male is much more better..
call it come will come n sayang u..
haha..
sweet right? ^^

both also white cats.. fuyoo...

n in my hometown is full of CNY feeling..
red red red every way..
haha.. pray n play fire work..
haha..

love CNY with family n friends

days...

day go pass by pass..
n my heart is still there..
how can i don care about it?
but i have no choice once i choose cut this out..
anything is not under my control anymore n i start don care about it FROM NOW~

ladies n gentlemen
u can be selfish but pls don be too selfish..
selfish can protect urself but once u too selfish it's just makes u looks ugly..

i learn something new..
everything is just puppy love**
start with puppy love end with puppy love..
n we playing each other..
my friend were really true.. i should protect myself firstly..
i have to know about the worth too..
haha..

although will still look n care about him.
the action, the words, the songs...
All this is became a melody in my mind...

stress is keep coming..
it will doesn't stop..
learning something...... LOL..
There's only two types of people in the world
The ones that entertain, and the ones that observe
which 1 u wan to be?

when i'm alone wat i think is all about him.
but when the time goes by I think he will slowly go out of my mind..
watever he did i will just noting n go my own way..


life goes by n i am ready to play

End of the dream was most painful...

why i did it... he was still in my heart.. so deep...
so pain....
isn't cause of he still in someway in my heart?
why i still cry for him... the sweetness was still leave in my heart...
i was so scared when i was think about he..
everything about him...

once again.. i cry for him again..

就算这次做错也只是怕错过
if this time did wrong i just scared i will miss it...

在一起叫 梦 分开了叫 痛
together call dream, break means call pain
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
isn't the dream which is never finish is most painful

告诉我暂停算不算放弃
pls tell me stop isn't give up, let it go?

it's really a bleeding love for me..
last time i thought i'm strong n i thought i had feel it before but..
i didn't..

it was a very really painful the bleeding heart n the crying eyes on me..

Why i still believe miracle would happen...
last time (or maybe now?) i still waiting..
but wat he did to me is really hurts me.. n killing me..
so now.. i.. myself.. cut this out.. cause i know it's no miracle......
although it's hard n painful........

when he feel the pain on his body actually my heart is more painful than him...

说 说你为什麼 为什麼要走 说你为何要分手
别拖 求你别软弱
求你说出口 分手的理由

但你却 拖 拖 拖
拖到什麼时候
如果要走却又为何停留

请你别 拖 拖 拖
大声的说出口

请你要痛就痛给我个快活

如果说你要走 我不会留 我不去管以后
然后我们说清楚 一句话就够

如果说你要走 我不会留 我不去管以后
多麼痛 多麼的难过
别越爱越难过

然后连话都不说 继续沉默

连朋友都没的作 为了什麼

然后跟别人说你其实还是爱我 就算了吧!坏人我来作!


i did it..... although it's pain.. it's hard.. but.. i know i can.....

now i most worry was............
actually his heart still with me..
but the miracle could't happen...

Go ChiKei~~~ [grow up lah LOL]

today... omg..
i don know wat i'm thinking i just did something.. which is bad...
i'm so evil.....

that's why i told my friends i am not full time cheerleader HAHA.. lol
i am ''half'' time cheerleader can be cheerful can be cruel..

LOL..
so many things to do...
don like form5 life le..
now wat i feel only pressure, stress, problems, homeworkssss...

haihz..
wat to do?
GROW UP LAH!!

haha... XDD
i just realize in my life i was always alone..
go school alone.. after i move to subang still go primary alone meet new friends..
after primary still going to secondary school alone again (cause no 1 come to my school)
after form 3 still go to the new class alone..
wat the helll....
but normal a d lo..

N now...
i'm alone again~~~~~~
chill chill..
still got friends still got friends..
if my friends know i think negative again sure knock my head..

now wat i wan to do just...
ermmm....
i am not sure actually.. haha..

see first lo..
XP

Yeah~~!!!!!!!

GO VULCANZ!

WuHooooOO! Cheer Mood is back~!!
(although still negative mind... wanna kena slap by my friends liao..)

frant walk over sucess!!!

but second day wat i got is just muscle pain.. T.T
ouchhh ouchhhhh.....

oh no oh no.. dizzy again... ><
headache headache..
hate it!!

ugghhhh..
cannot write title..

haihz..
so stress....

from school... from club... from myself.....

i'm so weird in this few days.. L O L

this whole week i went school sure got sleep at lease 1 period..
ming han n sze hou said i kena the sleeping virus from kok yee.. LOL
sleep cannot de meh..
feel dizzy everyday..
if angry than dizzy, suddenly talk too much also dizzy..
n my friends r keep shaking my body my shoulder lol killing me man..
haha... but they knew if i relax i sure think about something else..
yesterday went i came out from kantin OMGGGG i don know wat the hell they r doing..
i smell something weird.. n some more that time i was coughing
OH MY GOD~! than i start like asma.. i feel dizzy, can't talk just keep breathing than my hand became colder n colder.. n everything i saw just moving around..
i though i will just fall on the floor man..
(ouch.. that might be painful..)

ok ok i know i know i'm dumb dumb ok happy =.=''
weird friends..

i ask my friends shall i looking for others guys or just stay like this?
omg.. they knock my head ='(
painful le.......
but if i looking for another guy who care about me also might not be our school ppl..
don know... hehe.. either elder than me or others school =P
our school ar...ermmm... not sure le..
i can't promise how i know wat will happen in the future..
maybe i just 'BANG!!' than die n my AIA n EPF goes to my parents XP lol...

ok ok ok =.=''
my thinking too negative again..

(everytime my friends talk about he my heart will be like 'dupp' drop into sea so cold.. so dark... =='')

today just come back from cheer practice.. omg.... my hands keep shaking n i can't even control my fingers.... full of red n blueblack...

my teacher say i have to show my power to others ppl (LOL.. how wo..)
don keep on look down like shy shy emo emo..

feel like the dancing mood is come back to my body a d HAHAHA~~!!
dance dance n move move..
ok, stupid thing, enough ChiKei.. cause now i have to take care about my body..

never sleep well evey nite after 'THAT' happen man..


boom boom shake shake now drop...

omg.... i can't think too much.. now my brain dizzy again.... >< hate it!!!~~

Back To School, New Year, New Cheer

omgg..
school gonna reopen soon ><

to make my day not that empty now i just try keep on talk with my friends n think about wat gonna do when school reopen..
kinda loney.. (sob*sob*)

now my body like don wan to support me anymore.. don know i can tahan until which day..
so negative in my mind now.. LOL
i told my friends i don mind if i death now just hope i can done something bofore it haha =)

fuyoo.. than have to start busy about school n club a d..
school activity, have to start training than sports' day n exam...
after the watever IU night n competition than SPM..
wat the hell.. everything is Okay but...
but SPM T.T lol..

ermmm.. it's like gonna have fun but it's looks like so many thinging on my shoulder n so tired..


form 5 form 5.. no more seniors sad case..


no ppl can teach me n give me idea a d wuuuwuuuu >.<
so sad... haihz..

just hope this year if i did anything wrong got ppl can help me
(please god... T.T)

pressure lah~
somebody support me pls.. my mind n heart r already empty

however,friends r with me ^^


gym gym gym~ i wan learn back hand spring le.......
but now my body is so weak.. keep get sick get sick.. i hope i can handle it..
haihz..
Girlz ar.. come n give me some idea le..

P.S: LG Ice-Cream Phone ><
i wan it to be mine! haha XD

it's looks so cute n sweet.. LOL
i wan go see again!!

**i'm a lame girl with empty life, a girl who wan to cry but without tears**
the most pain is cry in heart; not on eyes