82nd

it's my big day yesterday :)

it's my bday n day trip to kuala gandah..
thx for the friends who support me n make it to the trip. *thankx

I'm not feeling well in this few days so = I'm sick!

for the trip.. all i can said will be..
the bus driver.. u r awesome
the weather.. u r hot like a American babe ==

for my day..
thx for the wishes
thx for the hugs
thx my boy boy taking care of me whole day

end here** update when i fully recover

81st

Burn by Usher

Girl, understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's coming from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cause the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2]
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feeling ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't coming back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Oh oh oh oh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my boo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-eleven days, um-teen hours
I'mma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cause the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gonna learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
you know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Bridge]
I'm twisted cause one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (oh)
I'm twisted cause one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

[Breakdown]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oh
Ooh ooh oh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oh ooh oh

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cause the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

for me.. im the other way round.. i want to burn it but i want to hold it back still (am i?)... usher is the best whenever i'm moody..

i want to work this out.. i really want to.. but now everything goes not on me..

i really hate this feeling.......... sorry.. i'm sorry.. just feel like saying sorry but if u ask me why, i will answer i don know..

80th

i... had made a very painful decision..

i never thought of i will actually do it..
the word 'LOVE' is a drug.. i can't do anything after i had addicted to it..

now i know the feeling.. suffer.. this feeling is more xin ku than i thought..

compare to training here this feeling is more suffer then working with stress n without pay..

i love u.. from deep of my heart.

i think we r the most weird couple in this world babe..
as long as u r happy with ur life i'm fine..

thx for the time, thx for the patience..
however, this is something between us k..

i still believe in one day, we both still holding hands n walking to the lan tia ta in France k..
i believe in fate, i believe in myself, i believe in u..

but somehow i wish i had a really bad case of cancel or heart attack or something like this.. just pass away n gone from this world..
told u a d right.. wat if i really die young..

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

nowadays my heart there always feel very pain.. i don know wat's going on with it..
now the feeling in my heart over take the feeling from the physical heart pain.. ouch..

i wish.. i had no tomorrow.. just end here, stop here, cause i had enough.. pls i ask for it.. pls..........
i serious scared one day i can't stand anymore n i'll fall.. if like that i rather end early..