"Taking joy in living is a woman's best cosmetic." ~ Rosalind Russell

102

2011-12-23T08:59:00.000-08:00

我真的很不开心。妈妈为什么你要这样对我？

我又哭了，哭好累。

我真的很伤心。为什么你对我那么冷淡？

我做错了什么？对你来说我是可有可无的人还是你的阿四？

我帮忙做家务，是，那些简单的家务需要每天做的就不算得了是工作是劳力吗？

难到一定要是檫完整个家的地板，檫完整个家的窗口门户才叫家务？？？

你说我每天出去我可以cut down，但是我留在家你也有东西骂，说我整天在家做了什么，说了就说：“很伟大吗？这个家你也有份的！”。

你回到家家里没人也有得骂，家务做了你又有东西骂？！

我朋友说你是累了每有东西发泄，但？为什么要发泄在我身上？？

回答你说我顶你，不答你你就越讲越过分。

他们说我take it 太认真了。你是我妈，你以前不是这样的。你会有说有笑，是个很风趣幽默的妈妈。

你有什么要求或不满意你可以说出来嘛。我们是一家人但是为什么你要冷淡的眼神和我说话？

弟弟做的家务是家务我的就不是？

我承认我之前出得太过分但我有改过啊！

在家陪你，你看电视不说话。说话说我吵到你。

我和朋友和男朋友出去，说说废话喝个茶我可以有得笑。有时候不是我不想留在家但，在家我可以做什么？家务？

弟弟你鼓励他们出去说怕他们没有朋友像nerd nerd的样子。有道理吗？

他们出到凌晨才回到家又怎样？

我要20岁了，我和你在20岁的时代不一样当然我的生活方式也不一样。不可以拿我和你来比。

弟弟们你能体谅，那我呢？

连和男朋友光明正大有去约会都不大敢更你说。

你一直说你是个开明的妈妈，当你有心情的时候你是。当你没心情时我真的不懂你。自相矛盾（？）

妈，你今年生病做手术的样子我还记得还是那么的心痛。

但，现在的你是被宠坏了吗？

101st

2011-11-10T21:53:00.001-08:00

today is 11.11.11 lol.. means no matter u wrote it in American style or British style u are both right for today xD

some one said it's single day but i don think so.. can't u see that's TWO 1 stick together?

:) however since it's my 101 post n it's gonna post about my baby's Birthday!!

pity him.. being wrap n need 99 signature to release him..

Now he's damn famous in the campus a d lah..

photo from Joshua xD why make up??!!!!!!!! ARGHH..

he so skinny! "too tight lah!" he complained..

at night i gave him a surprise although i don know is it surprise for him.. i ajak his friends together for dinner instate of both of us..

i think u all knew this place xD TGI FRIDAY! haha.. holding a chili souse bottle n act as a mic

blow the candle from this distance? r u serious?

Yeah~! but he did it :)

happy birthday! well.. someone just try to push this head down but failed even me tried to do so..

hahahahaaaa..

kaca! cheeeeeseeee* :)

wish u all the best in the future and studies.. muaxxx! :)

cya~

100th

2011-11-03T00:12:00.001-07:00

:D the 100Th post since i stop using any title..
why? cause i can't think of any title every time.. lol..
ahh... last week was my 'blur' week.. so blur in everything..
at lease this week I'm more 'awake'.. oh ya..

kinda worry :S a bit bit..
hope everything goes on well n smooth that's wat i wish..
*worried*

aargghhh... shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

people scared of grow old but some more they might just jealous of some others can grow old together with their loves one :)well.. like it 200% out of 100 ==

99th

2011-10-27T21:00:00.000-07:00

last night i accidentally hurt my loves one..
i feel so sorry to u baby.. although u said I'm forgiven already but i still feel bad about it..
i miss u crazy right now but i scared u will choose to ignore me..
DAMN damn damn.. wat i do to have u near.. i wish u were here..

i really don meant it.. 10 months time wasn't short for our age.. i knew..
i can't forgive myself since last night..
like that's a swore poke inside my heart n made me can't say a single words.. =(

Damn.. i hate myself

98th

2011-10-18T21:05:00.001-07:00

I don know why I'm so down today.. feel like can cry any time..

ya i am sensitive, i am emotional.. i can't read humans mind i can't even read mine so forgive me, forgive me being emotional because my heart just took over my mind n soul..

PMS.. watever.. usually i can take over it but this time something is try to break my cover that protects me..

but u know u can calm me easily with ur patience n hugs

for the ppl who like to do this here u r.. some how may be u don hate that person but maybe u just dislike wat they do before u make it clear n before u know the story.. rumours really kill lots of thing ok..

curious kills cat but rumours kills innocent people

97th

2011-10-18T00:20:00.000-07:00

in love with thai song, due to doing research have to look for difference bands in asia n i get to know him! TOR SAKSIT.. this song means 'i love you' so sweet! n so nice! :D

Title: รักเธอ / Ruk Tur (I Love You)

Artist: ToR+ Saksit (โต๋)
Album: Living in C Major
Year: 2007

เคยไหมบางทีที่เธอต้องการพูดอะไรออกไป
koie mai baang tee tee ter dtong gaan poot a-rai ok bpai
Have there ever been a time that you wanted to say something?
เคยไหมบางทีคำพูดมันไม่ยอมตรงกันกับใจ
koie mai baang tee kam poot man mai yom dtrong gan gap jai
Has there ever been a time that the words refused to come out right?
ทั้งที่พยายาม และไม่ว่าจะเตรียมตัว สักขนาดไหน
tang tee pa-yaa-yaam lae mai waa ja dtriam dtua sak ka-naat nai
Even though your try, and regardless how much you practiced
เหมือนฉันเองที่กำลังเผชิญหน้าความเป็นจริง
meuan chan eng tee gam-lang pay-chern naa kwaam bpen jing
Like I’m facing reality
และถึงแม้ข้างในพยายามพูดออกไปให้หมดทุกสิ่ง
lae teung mae kaang nai pa-yaa-yaam poot ok bpai hai mot took sing
And though inside I try to say everything
อย่างที่ตั้งใจ
yaang tee dtang jai
Like I planned

* แต่มัน ก็เหมือนเคย ไม่ว่าจะเปิดเผยสักเท่าไร
dtae man gor meuan koie mai waa ja bpert poie sak tao-rai
But, as usual, regardless of how much I open up
เมื่อต้องพูดคำนั้น เสียงฉันมันก็หายไป
meua dtong poot kam nan siang chan man gor haai bpai
When I have to say those words, my voice disappears

** อ่านปากของฉันนะ ว่า (รักเธอ)
aan bpaak kong chan na waa ( rak ter )
Read it from my lips, (I love you)
อยากจะพูดอีกครั้ง ว่า (รักเธอ)
yaak ja poot eek krang waa ( rak ter )
I want to say it again (I love you)
และจะเป็นอย่างนี้ กับเธอไม่ว่านานสักเท่าไร
lae ja bpen yaang nee gap ter mai waa naan sak tao-rai
And I will be like this, with you, no matter how long
ไม่ต้องกลัวว่าฉันจะรักใคร
mai dtong glua waa chan ja rak krai
You don’t have to be afraid that I’ll love anyone else
ไม่ต้องห่วงว่าฉัน เปลี่ยนหัวใจ
mai dtong huang waa chan bplian hua jai
No need to worry that I’ll have a change of heart
ฉันจะเป็นอย่างนี้ จะ (รักเธอ) ตลอดไป
chan ja bpen yaang nee ja ( rak ter ) dta-lot bpai
I’ll be like this, I’ll (love you) forever

ฉันรู้ดีว่าบางทีมันก็ดูเหมือนน่ารำคาญ
chan roo dee waa baang tee man gor doo meuan naa ram-kaan
I know well that sometimes it seems frustrating
แต่ฉันจะพยายามที่จะพูดออกไปให้หมดทุกสิ่ง
dtae chan ja pa-yaa-yaam tee ja poot ok bpai hai mot took sing
But I’ll try to say everything
ให้หมดทั้งหัวใจ
hai mot tang hua jai
From my entire heart

(*, **)

แต่ว่ามัน ก็เหมือนเคย ไม่ว่าจะเปิดเผยสักเท่าไร
dtae waa man gor meuan koie mai waa ja bpert poie sak tao-rai
But, as usual, regardless of how much I open up
เมื่อต้องพูดคำนั้น เสียงฉันมันก็หายไป
meua dtong poot kam nan siang chan man gor haai bpai
When I have to say those words, my voice disappears

(**)

จะย้ำด้วยคำๆนี้ ว่ารักเธอ ไม่ยอมรักใคร
ja yam duay kam-kam nee waa rak ter mai yom rak krai
I’ll keep repeating these words, that I love you, and I refuse to love anyone else

96th

2011-10-17T23:55:00.000-07:00

‎45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
...4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥!

95th

2011-10-16T20:01:00.000-07:00

Monday! (cheering happily)(after few second: shyt it's only Monday... sien diaol.......)

well... i just passed by Janice's thumble... hehe.. kena! she knew i copy her post n past on mine.. hahahaaa.. lazy lah sis.. u know me =P

*****

last friday..

due to celine n janice go something on for their college they never come for work 0.0

due to an event meiling wasn't in the office until 4pm 0.0

due to something something something simon not in the office 0.0

due to something again edmund went out n not in the office 0.0

due to the new intern want to go to don know where n lunch time they can't have lunch with me 0.0

WTH.. SADDDDD.. *ring ring* lucky i got my baby :)

he finished class early n hanging out with the friend n he (n his friends) come all the way to putra height n have lunch with me :D (HAPPY)

nelson, brandon, joshua... they're friendly.. know their names for a super long time but met in 1st time ==

grand that my baby boy got nice friends around him..

but they are all super naughty! (haihzz)

why i leave the receipt in the car lah weii... T.T

night my baby promised me fetch me to either kl sentral or LRT station for my penang trip :)

although he can't make it for penang but he promised me we r going to Singapore :D wweeeeeee~

(realize that's something until now i still can't really go through it :( nvm.. IGNORE IT BITCH.. :) big smile* )

gonna kick the headache away.. last night got ch massage for me yeah~ how about today? blek*

*********

i think 99% of girls will be fine even she's truly mad.. :)

Girl's Language :

If She Don't Text You :
- It's Because She's Waiting For You To Text Her

When She Walks Away From You Mad :
- Follow Her

When Shes Quiet :
- Ask Her What's Wrong

When She Ignores You :
- Give Her Your Attention

When She Pushes YOU AWAY :
- Pull Her BACK

When You See Her Crying :
- Wipe Her Tears & Ask What's Wrong

When She Says Go Away :
- Just Go Close To Her & Give Her Hug

94th

2011-10-14T01:52:00.000-07:00

this is a non-copyright from my lovely sis Janice.. she had blogged about the night at Zouk and i felt that it's fun.. as i said.. it's fun.. here we go..

http://janicious.tumblr.com/

Finally I have time to write a blog. I had a happening weekend. How about yours? On the Friday night, I went Zouk with my boss and colleagues. I hoped that you will be there as well, but when I knew, he is there and you will never show up. However, the night was awesome. Especially Chi Kei and I enjoyed to the max. Chi Kei is the new intern in our company. She was a cheerleader before and thus she was awesome when it comes to dance! We grabbed people’s attention although we did not dance on the dance floor. There were 3 foreigner came to intro themselves. We replied them friendly. However, I was at fault to tell them I’ve no boyfriend. It happened so quickly. He hugged my waist and wanted to bring me to his friends. I was at shocked and I turned behind. What I saw was our five men were all standing up behind me and stared at them. My boss then walked up, asked me what’s wrong. He then pulled me away from that dude, and stared at the dude. We were protecting behind our people and happily saying bye bye to the foreigners. We were so playful and naughty. Due to this, no one came to intro themselves anymore but only watching us dance at side. It was my third time seeing my lovely boss showed up his fierce face. However, there was so interesting when it came to Chong! His dancing style was way awesome and cute. Everyone laughed at him but we all enjoyed. We then headed to supper at Sunway Mentari at 3 plus in the morning. Nothing beats the moment. I reached home at 5am and slept at 6am.

wkakakakakaaaaaa... exactly wat was going on that night so i just copy n paste it xDDDD

BLEK!

93rd

2011-10-13T20:27:00.000-07:00

__another lovely picture from my colleague Celine

hiya~ penang here i come..

weeeeeee~~~~

i can't wait to see all my lovely friends :)

Maliewann, shannie, jia min, naeem, theeban...

like got grab stuff from facebook..

do u guys know Big Bang? the cool rapper TOP?

he shows that nothing is impossible man..

if u think u can't, u can't.. understand wat i mean?

but sometimes some energy that u can't explain will try to push u down n snap away all ur confident.. this thing happen to me before too..

now i just follow my heart.. although it's hard..

check this out:

hahaha.. so handsome man xD

two person fight to each other, the person who said sorry 1st doesn't mean he/ she lost..

he/ she just more treasure what they got between them more than another person.

but sometimes i was thinking, u apologize once, twice, three times, four times, fif, six, seven...

another person still don appreciate it.. what to do?

they will only realize when it's gone.. or almost gone..

cya~~

__follow ur heart

92nd

2011-10-12T20:17:00.000-07:00

Blue Thursday =( result was out.. omg.. the worst result i ever had..

my french just pass, at lease don need to resit for any shyt lah..

haihz... must work double hard for next term... it's getting harder n harder =X

must maintain my result so that after diploma i still can continue degree with a reason..

*****

(Tuesday) went to Klang for a meeting who knows it done within 40 min.. oh well.... snack time...

told u i'm getting fat.. now u believe that?

this shop since 80's if i'm not mistaken.. famous with their yao yao bing (shake shake ice?) anyway.. it had a lot of favour got traditional longgan (as picture shown), bobo caca, red bean, sweetcorn and etc.. n the fried chicken seriously remind me of my grandma who staying in Kampar..

yao yao ice with fried chicken with mei ling

this is actually wat saw at PUTRA HEIGHT, SELANGOR, MALAYSIA went we are on our way to Klang for a meeting..

my god.. so cute n so surprise.. the mother looks like japanese thought n wat that did were so 'la japun'

*****

went to sg.buloh all the way for dinner with family.. for my mum's birthday n also for my auntie cause her husband n her came back from Singapore last week ends (but now chao a d lah)

eat 'pun choi (Cantonese)' well.. overall not bad.. n my uncle's friend bought my mum a bottle of red wine.. the normal wine for me not too hard to drink still can accept n my uncles finish it.. lol..

so naughty n so cute..

my mummy n HaoHao :)

taken this look time ago but no matter how many time i saw this still cute :)

cya...

I'm not a Christian but this little cartoon is meaningful..

this might be just a small little stone that he missed out n hit on me..

will not give up =)

91st

2011-10-11T23:21:00.001-07:00

it's true and this is wat i looking for now :)

don live for others people's life..

btw, i'm getting fatter after i work in Cruz Event =="

(NOOOOO~~~~~) my boy boy must be complain.. hhhmmmmmmm..

control control..

cya~

90th

2011-10-10T23:00:00.001-07:00

hi ya~ i'm in the office again :)

love this picture that taken by my dear Celine..

thankx girl.. btw.. it's currently my new profile picture d.. :P

enjoying donimo's pizza in the office while watching Hell's Kitchen.. yes chef! push ur limit!!

=) going to klang for a meeting later.... without boss.. oh my.. should be fine.. hehe..

my zhu just bought an ipad2.. aleeeee.. show off a d.. hehe.. baby! i want to play ur ipad2!!! let's take picture with it.. hehe..

going to penang this week!!!

count down 3 more days!!!!!!!

i'm gonna met all my lovely DT37 once again!!

Maliewann i'm gonna sit n sleep with u!!

Shannie, jiamin, theeban, naeem and so on.. miss u guys like crazy..

now a days only can spamming each other on facebook.. that's sad man!

miss u guys.. muaxxx

cya~

89th

2011-10-06T21:18:00.000-07:00

ok.. i'm sad.. right now.. but i'm not gonna mention the reason..

currently event that happen in Cruz Event is the Alamanda, Putra Jaya. Tayota road show.

i was there for the set up.. CRAZY.. 10 pm until 4am but yet!

it's not the end.. boss allowed me n meiling to go back early..

but until 1 something 2 i tak tahan already =(

guess wat?!

my boss allowed me to sleep :D such a nice boss right n he pass to me the camry 2.0 G car key

O.O"?!

GET TO TAKE A NAP IN THE BRAND NEW CAMRY 2.0 G!! omg.. it's soooooooooooo comfortable n i'm really fall asleep..

n the camry car key is actually a controller ------ it doesn't have a key.. DAMN COOL!

when i'm holding the car controller my boss who want to move the car can just start the engine and move on.. 0.0 [that time i just woke up still bur so i didn't realize he never ask me for the 'key' and sleep back]

with this we don need a key :)

n same to the Toyota Prius.. another cool car.. when u holding the controller without pressing anything u can open the car door O.O???!!!!

i tried it :D so cool~~ :)

gonna work for the road show again tomorrow with the 4 pretty talent :)

another 10 to 10..

wish me luck..

cya

88th

2011-10-03T19:32:00.000-07:00

Se ami due persone nello stesso momento, scegli la seconda, perche se amassi veramente la prima non ti saresti innamorato della seconda.
--Johnny Depp

If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one, because if you really loved the first one you wouldn't have fallen for the second

--Jonny Depp

well, found it on facebook.. some how it true but to fall into this situation you have to know how to love. if you don know how to love u love neither one. true?

and i found the beer song xD so cuteeeeeeeeeeee

n it goes like this..

DOH, I want a pint of beer,

RAY, the guy who serves me beer,

ME, the one who drinks the beer.

FAH, a long way to the john.

SOH, I'll have another beer!

LAH, ger, lager, lager, beer,

TEA, no thanks I'll have a beer,

and that bring us back to DOH!

:) many thing may confuse you.. follow ur heart, if u feel like leave it aside right now just do it.. just throw it behind.. times will comes time will goes on.. n some time when u leave it it will unknock it automatically.. or time will lend u to a better way

FOLLOW UR HEART n WORK it out!

87th

2011-10-02T19:49:00.000-07:00

second week of training..

omg.. i can't believe that 1st week training then can go 'socialise' already xD too fast?

but it's fun! Zuet.... ermmm not bad.. :P don want to comment about it right now..

i fall in love with Volkswagen GOLF 1.4!! love it! wanted to take photo but nahhhh don want to be like wanna be.. *paise* but well.. one day :) i will find my way to take picture with those nice car :D

might going to penang with my beloved DT37 next week.. 90% perhaps.. hehe 10% increased..

went to 3k with my beloved SuAnn :) before that i bought her to my campus hehe.. she hates me... then teman her watch nasi lemak 2.0 but kinda sad was i found out the baba in the movie was passed away last night.. RIP baba :(

ok.. back to yesterday.. after movie we went to ROXY n La Senza for window shopping.. ahhhh! almost lost control.. we promise each other for girl shopping already :D here we go!

cya~ w b c

C I A R A, come on

Pull up your pants, just like him
Take out the trash, just like him
Getting your cash like him, fast like him
Girl you wanna act like he did

I?m talking 'bout, security codes on everything
On vibrate so your phone don?t ever ring
A foreign account
And another one he don?t know about

Wish we could switch up the roles and I could be that
Tell you I love you but when you call, I never get back
Would you ask them questions like me, like 'Where you be at?'
'Cuz I?m out, four in the morning on the corner rolling doing my own thing

What if I had a thing on the side, made you cry
Would the rules change up or would they still apply
If I played you like a toy?
Sometimes I wish I could act like a boy

Can?t be getting mad, but you mad, can?t handle that?
Can?t be getting mad, but you mad, can?t handle that?

Girl go ahead and be just like him
Go run the streets just like him
Go home missin' sleep like 'em, creep like 'em
Front wit' you friends, act hard when you with them like him

Keep a straight face when you tell a lie
Always keep an air tight alibi
Keep it hid in the dark
What he don?t know won?t break his heart

Wish we could switch up the roles and I could be that
Tell you I love you but when you call, I never get back
Would you ask them questions like me, like 'Where you be at?'
'Cuz I?m out, four in the morning on the corner rolling doing my own thing

What if I had a thing on the side, made you cry
Would the rules change up or would they still apply
If I played you like a toy?
Sometimes I wish I could act like a boy

Can?t be getting mad, but you mad, can?t handle that?
Can?t be getting mad, but you mad, can?t handle that?
Can?t be getting mad, but you mad, can?t handle that?
Can?t be getting mad, but you mad, can?t handle that?

If I was always gone, hit the sun getting home
Told you I was with my crew when I knew it wasn?t true
If I act like you, walked a mile off in your shoes
Messing with your head again, dose of your own medicine

What if I had a thing on the side, made you cry
Would the rules change up or would they still apply
If I played you like a toy?
Sometimes I wish I could act like a boy

Can?t be getting mad, but you mad, can?t handle that?
Can?t be getting mad, but you mad, can?t handle that?
Can?t be getting mad, but you mad, can?t handle that?
Can?t be getting mad, but you mad, can?t handle that?

R A go
Here?s the clutch

If I paged you, would you like that?
Had friends, would you like that?
With a car, would you like that?
Hell nah, you wouldn?t like that, no

What if I made you cry, would they still apply?
What if I, if I played you like a toy?
Sometimes I wish I could act like a boy

Can?t handle that?

86th

2011-09-29T01:34:00.000-07:00

girl : "Am I too hot for you?"

boy: (hug) "Yes you are baby."

girl : "Then why are you still holding me?" (try to push him away)

boy: "Because I am willing to get burn." (pull her back and hug her tight)

sweet right... haha.. but all this drama rarely happened in real life thought..

wearing casual to work is so cool~ hehe.. sorry for my other friends that still have to wear formal to work for this training.. *blek~*

DAVID GUETTA is one of the weird artist or DJ that i ever seen..

he, himself in his music video but he don sing or rap or say a single word haha..

but no matter wat, he's freaking AWESOME alright?

i want to dance so badly :)

(ps: btw, the speaker that i'm using in the office is awesome.. got beat and base xD)

It's been said and done
Every beautiful thought's been already sung
And I guess right now here's another one
So your melody will play on and on, with the best of 'em
You are beautiful, like a dream come alive, incredible
A centerfold miracle, lyrical
You've saved my life again
And I want you to know baby

[Chorus]
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hitting re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hitting re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

[Verse 2]
Constantly, boy you played through my mind like a symphony
There's no way to describe what you do to me
You just do to me, what you do
And it feels like I've been rescued
I've been set free
I am hypnotized by your destiny
You are magical, lyrical, beautiful
You are... And I want you to know baby

[Bridge]
No one compares
You stand alone, to every record I own
Music to my heart that's what you are
A song that goes on and on

[Chorus]
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hitting re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

I love you...like a love song...

cya~

85th

2011-09-26T00:30:00.000-07:00

i'm crazy with this yummy sweet macaroons.. yummy~ love it so much.. so if i got free time "IF" lah.. i feel like try to bake it.. this small dessert quite expensive thought..

here we go~

Parisian-Style Lemon Macaroons

For the lemon-curd filling:
4 ounces (1 stick) unsalted butter
1 cup superfine sugar
3 large eggs, beaten Zest of 2 lemons
Juice of 2 lemons

For the macaroons:
1 cup almond flour
1 1⁄4 cups confectioners’ sugar
3 large egg whites, at room temperature
Pinch of salt
3⁄4 cup superfine sugar
10 drops yellow food coloring

1. Prepare the lemon curd: Melt the butter in a double boiler over low heat. Gradually whisk in the remaining ingredients. Continue to whisk until curd is thick enough to hold the whisk’s marks, 6 to 10 minutes. Transfer to a bowl, cover the surface with plastic wrap and cool in the refrigerator for about 1 hour.

2. Preheat the oven to 320 degrees. Place one cookie sheet on top of another and line the top sheet with parchment paper or Silpat. Sift together the almond flour and confectioners’ sugar into a large bowl. In a mixing bowl fitted with a whisk, whip 2 of the egg whites and salt to stiff peaks.

3. Combine the superfine sugar and 1/4 cup water in a small heavy-bottomed saucepan. Stir over medium heat and from time to time brush the edges with hot water using a pastry brush. When the syrup reaches 241 degrees or the “soft ball” stage on a candy thermometer, whisk the syrup into the stiff egg whites in a thin steady stream. Continue whisking until the meringue forms soft peaks.

4. Using a fork, work the remaining egg white into the almond flour-sugar mixture to make a smooth wet paste. Stir a quarter of the meringue into the almond paste to moisten, then gently fold in the remaining meringue and the food coloring. Using a pastry bag fitted with a 1/2-inch round tip, pipe 1 1⁄4-inch rounds on the cookie sheet. Gently tap the pan on the work surface to settle the meringue peaks. Let stand until a skin forms, about 20 to 30 minutes.

5. Bake with the door slightly ajar for 12 minutes; rotate the pan then bake for another 12 minutes. When cool, sandwich two macaroons together with a dollop of lemon curd. Let stand in the refrigerator for 12 to 24 hours. Makes 35 to 40 macaroons.

84th

2011-09-26T00:15:00.000-07:00

alolo... today is my 1st day of training... omg.. n wat i am doing...
so many thing that happen in term4 but i never post about it at all..

from term4 started to video taking to desaru tour to study until 3 4 am to went to new club together n yadayada...

currently working in the CRUZ EVENT & COMMUNICATION COMPANY located in putra height.
ok wat... no jam xD but most of my friends all work in KL :(

well... last week some1 made me feel super duper paise.. aarrgghhhh.. the guy who gonna buy me macaroon & famous amos today..hehe.. thankx ya baby.. kakakkaakkaaaaaaaa...

since you knew wat song i like d then i post one more FOR U alright?

Bring the beat in!

Honey, honey
I can see the stars all the way from here
Can't you see the glow on the window pane?
I can feel the sun whenever you're near
Every time you touch me I just melt away

Now everybody asks me why I'm smiling out from ear to ear (They say love hurts)
But I know (It's gonna take the real work)
Nothing's perfect, but it's worth it after fighting through my fears
And finally you put me first

Baby it's you.
You're the one I love.
You're the one I need.
You're the only one I see.
Come on baby it's you.

You're the one that gives your all.
You're the one I can always call.
When I need you make everything stop.
Finally you put my love on top.

Oh! Come on baby.
You put my love on top, top, top, top, top.
You put my love on top.
Oh Oh! Come on baby.
You put my love on top, top, top, top, top.
My love on top.
My love on top.

Come on baby
I can hear the wind whipping past my face.
As we dance the night away.
Boy your lips taste like a night of champagne.
As I kiss you again, and again, and again and again.

Now everybody asks me why I'm smiling out from ear to ear (They say love hurts)
But I know (It's gonna take the real work)
Nothing's perfect, but it's worth it after fighting through my fears.
And finally you put me first.

83rd

2011-06-09T18:24:00.000-07:00

usher -- hey, daddy

Baby, I just wanna get your attention
I really wanna be all up in your head
Cause when I got you're gonna wanna get some yeah
But girl that's only if you ain't scared
And I won't knock or ring no bells
You just poke that bottom up in the air
I'll get you hot, I know you oh so well
And when I'm walk in, all that I wanna hear

Is you say Daddy's home, home for me
And I know you've been waiting for this love in your day
You know your daddy's home (daddy's home), and it's time to play (so it's time to play)
So you ain't got to give my loving away
So all my ladies say hey hey hey daddy
(Hey hey hey daddy)So all my ladies say hey hey hey daddy
(Hey hey hey daddy)

I ain't gotta do a lot of flexin'
Shorty you already know what it is
And girl tonight we're gonna do a lot of sexin'Can't nobody do your body like this ohh

Poke it on out poke it out right there
I'm a fall back while you work that chair
Do that damn thing let the neighbors hear (Hey hey hey daddy)
Poke it on out poke it out right thereI'm a fall back let you work that chair
Do that damn thing all I wanna hear

Is you say Daddy's home, home for m
And I know you've been waiting for this lovin' all dayYou know your daddy's home (daddy's home), it's time to play (so it's time to play)
So you ain't got to give my loving away

Daddy's home, home for me
And I know you've been waiting for this love in your day
You know your daddy's home (daddy's home), it's time to play (so it's time to play)
So you ain't got to give my loving away

So all my ladies say hey hey hey daddy

Hey hey hey daddy (call me daddy babe)
So all my ladies say hey hey hey daddy

Hey hey hey daddy

Hey daddy know what you like yeah

wish he will sing this song to me.. but "WISH LAH"
he wont know, i wont tell :)
everything was so messy at the moment.. problems problems problems
pull me out from all this shyt pls..
i want to chop myself a d..
where's my 'home' (shoulder) 'daddy' (u) [where's ur shoulder, i need it now]

82nd

2011-05-15T07:05:00.000-07:00

it's my big day yesterday :)

it's my bday n day trip to kuala gandah..
thx for the friends who support me n make it to the trip. *thankx

I'm not feeling well in this few days so = I'm sick!

for the trip.. all i can said will be..
the bus driver.. u r awesome
the weather.. u r hot like a American babe ==

for my day..
thx for the wishes
thx for the hugs
thx my boy boy taking care of me whole day

end here** update when i fully recover

81st

2011-05-11T02:46:00.000-07:00

Burn by Usher

Girl, understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's coming from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cause the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2]
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feeling ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't coming back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Oh oh oh oh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my boo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-eleven days, um-teen hours
I'mma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cause the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gonna learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
you know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Bridge]
I'm twisted cause one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (oh)
I'm twisted cause one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

[Breakdown]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oh
Ooh ooh oh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oh ooh oh

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cause the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

for me.. im the other way round.. i want to burn it but i want to hold it back still (am i?)... usher is the best whenever i'm moody..

i want to work this out.. i really want to.. but now everything goes not on me..

i really hate this feeling.......... sorry.. i'm sorry.. just feel like saying sorry but if u ask me why, i will answer i don know..

80th

2011-05-09T22:49:00.000-07:00

i... had made a very painful decision..

i never thought of i will actually do it..
the word 'LOVE' is a drug.. i can't do anything after i had addicted to it..

now i know the feeling.. suffer.. this feeling is more xin ku than i thought..

compare to training here this feeling is more suffer then working with stress n without pay..

i love u.. from deep of my heart.

i think we r the most weird couple in this world babe..
as long as u r happy with ur life i'm fine..

thx for the time, thx for the patience..
however, this is something between us k..

i still believe in one day, we both still holding hands n walking to the lan tia ta in France k..
i believe in fate, i believe in myself, i believe in u..

but somehow i wish i had a really bad case of cancel or heart attack or something like this.. just pass away n gone from this world..
told u a d right.. wat if i really die young..

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

nowadays my heart there always feel very pain.. i don know wat's going on with it..
now the feeling in my heart over take the feeling from the physical heart pain.. ouch..

i wish.. i had no tomorrow.. just end here, stop here, cause i had enough.. pls i ask for it.. pls..........
i serious scared one day i can't stand anymore n i'll fall.. if like that i rather end early..

79th

2011-04-27T00:11:00.000-07:00

haihz... i start hating myself for easy 'hap cou' =(
feeling killing myself aahhhhhhhhhhhhh...

i shall.... erm... i don know...
i love this song... how nice if i know guitar :)
cause u n i both love..

it's a kinda old song.. but who said old songs can't be nice right :)

**thx for the tiramissu**

--to the man that i always mention--

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now,
Oh love, no
You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore, mmm...
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have to go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see me now
well then I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, out of words.

78th

2011-04-21T22:24:00.000-07:00

hey I'm blogging! finally..

?! blog? r u in ur training right now? yes

then why r u still blogging?? cause here too sien a d lahhhhh..

yesterday went back Taylor's to promote the tours.. n guess wat..
we met up with some bloody hell ppl.. ==
B***hy face.. beh tahan this kind of ppl.. maybe is we really don know them well or whatever but as u study this subject 1st impression really important n we believe they fail..
wish will never see them again.. n i will never support whatever event that they organize..
u r senior.. "ya damn right".. lucky i'm not in ur class or else i will miss out a lot of fun..

KL's weather is bad.... really bad nowadays..
rain almost everyday.. n i hate the transportation! sick of it.. argghhh..

n i don really like this hotel though.. can smoke inside ==

now the most most most important thing for me to settle is fill up the Kuala Gandah bus.. haihz..

how come they don really know Kuala Gandah? today i realize its on the Maggie Hot Cup ==

so surprise...
well, the lastest event that happened in the office will be our beloved Shannie's Bday!!

10 students 1 office.. cheeseeeeeeeeee DT35 + DT37~~

i got the one n only strawberry from the bday cake xD

yumm yummy~ in the end we share lah.. but i got the 1st bite.. *smile*

see 9 girls n the only man xD

*****

this bendan made two u-turn in our own housing area yesterday.. xD
he said when he with me he like getting stupid.. so mean right.. mean i getting smarter lo? xD
love u baby..
mon mari.. je taime

77th

2011-04-06T22:08:00.000-07:00

training time.. 1st few days kinda miss class...

if only class.. go class, lecture, assessment, assignment.. DONE..

now working..

8.5 hours work + 4 hours travel per day.. damn cool....

the work is fine for me but the travel makes me tired..

if not it will be perfect! shit u man..

not really in good mood nowadays...

no why n don ask why although the reason in my heart..

so shut up.. shhhtt

Friday die weii..

after work reach home already 7.30 then 8.30 Awesome cheer gym..

gg.. lucky i'm spotter..

WHAT THE HELL WHAT THE HELL U SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!! i don know wat i'm typing also.. just follow the mood..

76th

2011-03-31T06:19:00.000-07:00

你喜欢我的发香而我想念你香水的味道。。 miss u

75th

2011-03-18T00:04:00.000-07:00

headache go away, headache go away~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You say that I'm messing with your head
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
All 'cause I was making out with your friend
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Love hurts, whether it's right or wrong
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I can't stop 'cause I'm having too much fun
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees,
beggin' please
'stay with me'
But honestly,
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now,
I'm thinking 'What the hell'
All I want is to mess around,
and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me,
you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now,
whoa 'What the hell'

What,
What,
What,
What the hell

So what if I go out on a million dates
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
You never call or listen to me anyway
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd rather rage than sit around and wait all day
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Don't get me wrong,
I just need some time to play (yeah)

You're on your knees,
beggin' please
'stay with me'
But honestly,
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now,
I'm thinking 'What the hell'
All I want is to mess around,
and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me,
you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now,
whoa 'What the hell'

La la la la la la la la, whoa, whoa
La la la la la la la la, whoa, whoa

You say that I'm messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head
When I'm messing with you in bed

All my life I've been good but now,
I'm thinking what the hell (what the hell)
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about (I don't care about)
All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about. (if you love me)
If you love me (no), if you hate me (no)
You can't save me, baby, baby (if you love me)
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la, La la la la la la, La la, La la la la la la la

74th

2011-02-24T23:19:00.000-08:00

opps.. haha.. my friend remind me to throw something on to my blog..

well... kinda stress in this week n it makes me think a lotttttttttttttttttttt..

it's like.. being random.. feel sad, down even guitly.. wat the hack!

the CNY was...... ok lah.. balik kampung n stay in kampung n gamble.
but i got no luck in this new year man D:
keep losing money only but oh well, i know how to stop.. hehe..
if not will be like minghan == wat the hell weii.. don know how to stop..
will never ever go casino with him D:
hehe ch also lose money in kin gwn's house.. haha..
others too 'ONG' a d lah..

15th was kin gwn's birthday so after dinner we went his house and for the 'celebration' but who will know that we gave him a double surprise *smile*

cause only 3 girls there excluding TT's girlfriend.

3 of us holding 3 diff cakes n written happy CNY, happy valentine's day and HAPPY BIRTHDAY~

haha.. we r so silly. to avoid kin gwn walk to the back n check us out i lie n said hui xin's clothes got problem xD NO MAN ALLOWED TO STEP IN

the next day i got from fb kin gwn cut 5 cakes in 1 day.. haha.. good lah show off~~

sweetheart thx for the valentine's day :) love it..

it's totally out of my mind n i'm still thinking is it real?

:) thx

u being busy nowadays.. take care*

yesterday went Museum Orang Asli == i thought is Museum ORANG UTAN
some more it's heavy rain we took more then an hour to get there..

but we all slept in the bus lah damn nice~~~~~~~

*jump jump**

after all the visitation we found out 3 out of 4 visitation were raining ==
sad siaol~~~~~

i don wan to fall sick le....

73rd

2011-01-21T22:58:00.000-08:00

keep playing with music this few day.. ahhaa my blog death.. blek..

oh well,
no guys who will like girls that lack of confident (that's wat i think, unless some special case gua..) who cares..

oh nana.. btw, the Awesome performance was awesome!
the kids in chee wen so cute!! omg.. start wah-ing from the 1st jump until the last pyramid..

and then for class last week we actually went Batu Caves.. n it actually rainnnnnnn..
=)
playing in the rain..
*i'm singin in the rain, just singin' in the rain~
with this glorious feeling n i happy again
i'm laughing at cloud so dark, up above
the sun's in my heart
n i'm ready for love*
lucky i never fall sick cause of this.

i think my friend willing to play with me in the rain.. haha so call "romantic"

other than that everything was fine.. ya.. think so.. so far so good.. lol..

n i back to my R&B music..
usher raymond, ne-yo..
usher got a really nice voice but not only in pop music also in R&B.
R&B i can listen to it all the time n enjoy myself, before sleep, while i walking.. relax n enjoy..
pop music also my another choice but R&B more meaning full?
i got no idea.. i almost done everything according to my mood.
Taylor swift also another good choice.
her song "mine" remind me of something.. else :)
n those party song will be third..

a lit of music is good for me while i'm doing my work, make me feel time passed faster n finish faster also..
but the bad thing is when i put on my ear phone i will totally live in my own world.. rarely looks around n see wat's going on.. ahaha..

*hug* i miss u now

72nd

2011-01-13T04:16:00.000-08:00

I'm singin' in the rain,
just singin' in the rain.
with this sadly feeling n i move on again.
i laughing at clouds
so dark, up above.
I'm singin' n just singin' in the rain

walk in the rain during batu caves time.. it's fun. something bothering my mind..
but during the time when i just think of i want to get to the top of batu caves i did it.. i do put it aside..
i had change my raining song d..
last time will sing 'xia yu tian' but it's a really sad song..
now change to GLEE singing in the rain remix umbrella..
should be a happy song cause it's like happy n really for love..
but so n so i change it into sad song again..

currently my mind is in a mess..
like a cupboard which mix up with all the out fit..
is it my problem? i feels like I'm putting my self in trouble..
i'm afraid...... yes i do

71st

2010-12-26T06:30:00.000-08:00

no matter how sad i am when i with u,
u will create laughter for me..

do u know the best thing about u? is u can easily make me smile..

actually.. u never promise me anything n i don dare to ask for it too..
cause i feel wat i had now is more then over for this moment..
so really don need to rush..
enjoy the moment..
shouldn't that greedy

short n this is my feeling right now, this moment..

70th

2010-12-25T08:53:00.000-08:00

泪水将我淹没
到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情

我才终于明白
奔不到的承诺就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心说真心谎话
别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我不爱
我不痛
我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷

请告诉她
我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心说真心谎话
别告诉她
我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
别告诉她
我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

sry i might broke the promise..
although u said don cry don waste the tears but i do..
don need to say sry to me, i should thx u for being honest to me better then lie to me..
when 1st time i read the text i thought i can handle it as good as how i perform..
but when i'm alone the feeling is killing me..
its hurts, yes, it is..
nobody's wrong just u been a head of me, maybe i can't follow ur step.
u come i leave, i'm back u leave.
actually just like wat i told before.. i don expect for anything.. but maybe i just too greedy n in the end i hurt myself back..
maybe wat i had before was too much for me n now they want to take it away one by one from me..
sry i cry...

69th

2010-12-18T04:37:00.000-08:00

I'm leaving~
never to come back again, it's just like somebody but nobody cares.
I'm telling u lies, but u think it's alright,
'cos I'm not the ppl who stay ur heart (heart) .
n now I'm leaving~ never looking back again.
so call ur shorty and I'm gonna say to u goodbye (bye)~

u said I'm pretty,
need put more confident on.
u said I'm funny,
'cos u like my lame jokes a lot.
i know u get me,
only u will continue on (on)

before u met me,
i was a lit girl.
but thing were kinda heavy,
u rise my heartbeat fast.
in next February,
i wish u're my valentine, valentine

let's go all the way tonight,
no regrets, just joys
we can dance until we die
u n i
i will tell u ily!

u make me
feel like I'm seeing u, for 1st time
they way u look at me
i can't sleep
let's runaway
n don't ever look back
don ever look back

my heart stops
when u look at me
just 1 touch
n baby i believe
this is real
so take a breath
n tell u i fall for u
yes, i fall for u!

XOXO my new hobby.. lol.. change lyrics according to my mood n my mind.. quite fun..
the short n 1st one that on top is wat i post on facebook..
the mood quite sad actually..
when the ppl that u like doesn't like u..

68th

2010-12-12T03:59:00.000-08:00

finally i knew wat's the feeling of drinking alone..
the taste of the alcohol can't even cover the bitter of my heart....

wat can i do...

u're the heart heart heart heart heart breaker

68th

2010-12-10T02:18:00.000-08:00

good job for the Malaysian studies assignment :)
the video was so so so nice n they act so good haha...
thx ppl :) u guys had just add on another sweet good memory in my memory land for uni's life
and lecture said the report did well also :D haha.. i did it and ching nee type it out during the jouney to KLIA professional activity..
so rush right..
n i guess all of us will got a 'not so bad' marks for malaysian studies then.
lecture like my conclusion.. so happy..
cause i tak biasa do paper work when i was in high school..
good luck in for our final assessment!
DT 37 each n everyone of us sure can end up in term6.

SHARE~ our final work

67th

2010-12-08T06:26:00.000-08:00

so sleepy now... =O=

but i still feel like post something on my blog.. hahaha.. my conteng board =P

wish wat he told me is true.. heartbeat went fast when i saw him.. omg...
i keep the memory carefully.. miss him badly..

I'm still thinking about I'm like or fall for u..
so still waiting...
actually i thinking shall i tell u or not to tell u..?
no idea so far...

wish me luck*

66th

2010-12-04T01:15:00.000-08:00

i know.. when u near by my heartbeat goes fast and when u walk away my heart feel empty...

i know.. i may need u to fill up the space..

sigh..

if can.. i really feel like walk away from here go for vacation or whatever but just leave

n look thru my heart to know that i like u or i fall for u?

but i know that... u does feel the same............

65th

2010-12-02T05:57:00.000-08:00

月儿弯呀弯呀弯呀弯将你的情话儿放我心上
月儿弯呀弯呀弯呀弯古楼里的琴声与你把酒欢
思念的花儿一般待放的新娘
娇媚的花儿盛放满月落屋梁
轻轻的海风有幸福的味道
满满的悬挂心上
夜里的花儿月牙静静连成双
日头的花儿只盼为你来绽放
依偎在摇椅我轻轻的唱
深深的思念月儿了
月儿弯呀弯呀弯呀弯将你的情话儿放我心上
月儿弯丫呀呀弯呀弯古楼里的琴声与你把酒欢
(客家山歌正月来思啊恋真啊真思恋
打扮啊有三妹打扮啊有三妹
打扮来三妹三妹过新年啊唉哟哟都哟)
将我的脸紧紧靠在你胸膛
让我的眼不再为细雨茫茫
靠着你温热我静静的唱
满满的爱你听见吗

don know should be unhappy for u anot.. wat it show? wat it proved?
1stly i really sad n heart broke, but then u change ur words..
shall i trust u? haihz.. moon know my heart

64th

2010-11-30T01:58:00.000-08:00

i miss u... but i don know whether I'm falling for u or just like this feeling...

when i found out.. i will tell..
pls don laugh

although u may just make a smile n forget it...

I'm a loser in this... yes i am.. but i do think of u....

几米说:
　　　当你喜欢我的时候，我不喜欢你，
　　　当你爱上我的时候，我喜欢上你，
　　　当你离开我的时候，我却爱上你，
　　　是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步,
　　　我们错过了诺亚方舟，错过了泰坦尼克号，
　　　错过了一切的惊险与不惊险，我们还要继续错过。
　　　我不了解我的寂寞来自何方，但我真的感到寂寞。
　　　你也寂寞，世界上每个人都寂寞，只是大家的寂寞都不同吧。

安妮宝贝说:
　　　当一个女子在看天空的时候，她并不想寻找什么。
　　　她只是寂寞。

63rd

2010-11-29T04:24:00.000-08:00

Found out someway in facebook, chheck this out..

1.
你经常看他/她的空间。

2.
当你和他/她打电话后，你会看下通话时间。

3.
你一遍又一遍读他/她的短信。

4.
你和他/她一起走路的时候，走得很慢很慢

5.
他/她在你周围的时候，你会故意装作不在乎他/她，但当他/她离开的时候你会着急的找他/她。

6.
当你想到他的时候，你的心跳一会跳得快，一会跳得慢。

7.
你听到他/她的声音的时候会笑。

8.
当你和他/她在一起的时候，你看不见周围的所有人，你的眼中只有他/她。

9.
当你想到他/她的时候，你会听抒情的慢歌。

10.
你看到他/开心的时候，你会不自觉的扬起一丝微笑。

11.
你闻到他/她的气味就很兴奋。

13.
你意识到当你看着他/她的时候，你就在内心盘算和他/她说什么，很紧张。

14.
为了见到他/她，你会为他/她做任何事。

15.
当你读这篇文章的时候，有个人一直在你的脑中浮现。

16.
你不停的想他/她，以至于你都没有发现这里没有第十二条。

17.
你翻上去找第十二条，然后默默地笑自己...

许个愿吧，你想...

semtam d.. like wat wann wann said.. ppl's heart got no u, wat for u care about ppl so much?
make my ownself depress only..
nothing to do with u nothing at all..
i'm gonna force myself not to think of u...

62nd

2010-11-28T03:56:00.000-08:00

I really appreciate the time when I'm with u..
although u wont know;
although u wont feel it;
although u thought I'm fooling around when we r with our friends;
although u wont know i put my eyes on u most of the time;

but i don dare to make the movement to get closer to u..
if it's a fail er... i wish i can be watching u, talk with u n that's enough..
if i fail to do that n make u scared of me pls don ignore me too...

but when i miss u and u got a feeling on me
tell me if u miss me too...

61st

2010-11-27T00:16:00.000-08:00

I’m tired of being alone, I’m sick of being single, I think I need me a girl. I need a girl like.

One that speaks without thinking
Not a little child, but one that will embrace me yeah
Not a girl that plays around sometimes when she’s bored
But one that will only love me
Even if she stays still and guys hand her their phone
That kind of girl that will proudly take out and show my picture

Girl, I need a girl
Pretty no matter what she does
A pretty body, too
Girl, I need a girl
Baby, I need you
Girl, you need me, too

A kind of girl that looks better in jeans than a skirt
A girl that will eat the kimchi fried rice that I make instead
A girl who looks young even though she’s old
I like that kind of girl
(Know what I mean)

A girl that acts shy, but knows how to be bold
Always pretends to careful of her behavior
But when you’re with her
Hmm, why’all know what I’m talking about

Girl, I need a girl
Pretty no matter what she does
A pretty body, too
Girl, I need a girl
I like this kind of girl

Looks are not an issue
But a cute girl who knows style
Even though our hobbies are different
Our tastes are the same
A girl that I can relate to a lot
When we watch movies or listen to music

(Yes!) I love girls, girls I do adore
In front of people, she has principles as she plays
In front of me, she’s like “Ah, I don’t know”

A voice that wakes me up in the morning
(Morning Kiss) I want to start the day
I’ll learn on your knees at night
As I listen to a lullaby
I want to dream of you

Make my heart race again
Make me able to create sweet songs again

You know don’t need no more
It’s just not like that
You’re the person I want to give my heart to

Girl, I need a girl
Girl, I get, gotta make you’re mine
I’m treat you right, baby

Girl, I need a girl
Pretty no matter what she does
A pretty body, too
Girl,, I need a girl
Baby, I need you
Girl, you need me too

Girl, I need a girl
Girl, I need a girl

Girl, are you listening to me?
Baby, I need you
Girl, you need me, too

Girl, I need a girl

-TaeYang-

I'm so happy that we had a good time =) i don know his mind maybe not as good as wat i though but enough to make me happy. try to be normal whenever we met...
kinda sad huh.. heartbeat goes fast when i saw him n will feel disappointed when i never met him especially the day that i bll (DT37 words xP)

oh no.. my skin type getting sensitive! wat the hell.. so ugly....... still can't find out wat i sensitive on.. sigh...
need to get a solution out.. baby i need u, boy u need me too...

60th

2010-11-10T02:12:00.000-08:00

他应该不会想到在我脑海里的人会是他吧。。

我真是个奇怪的人。。。

我在难为我自己了，
以前也从没问过你怎样想我，我好看吗，甚至是撒撒娇。以前的我真是不懂这些呢。
都过去了。如果是现在的我在那时的情行应该不会生气。。不懂不懂

手机还一样呢。。。。

在想为什么那时没回你的信息呢？

忘了。。。我朋友都说我变得很懒惰回信息了呢。。是吗。。

做自己好了。。把你埋在心里吗。。？

go go go! assessment assessment......

59th

2010-11-09T07:33:00.000-08:00

我好讨厌这样的自己。。。
我不只到我要做什么，虽然在某一些地方已经有了方向但是有些东西好像不懂飞去那里了。。
如果说这是个天平那么我永远都得不到我要的东西吧。
又或者得到后，坏的那一方面在好的完了才来。

真差劲。

是太过靠感觉了吗？

好想好想有个肩膀可以靠一下而已。。累了。睡吧。。。。

58th

2010-11-07T00:42:00.000-07:00

went charm all star practise last Thursday and i'm lost in don't know where and make me turned for an hour

it was fun.. end up in the segi pool.. lolx~~

Thursday -- kena throw to the pool
Friday -- kena bully by my cousins and jump into the waterfall
Saturday -- lepak day
Sunday -- end up OH NO.. geo..

share the new sweet songs that makes me melt.. it's still 2pm

Even If You Leave Me (Translation)

Even if you leave me, I'll be happy if I'm able to just watch you, that's all I need
Even if you're in the arms of another, I'll be happy, I'll be happy if you just remember, that's all I need
No mater where you are, don't get hurt. Don't skip meals because you want to diet. You have to smile more in front of that person, prettily.

If, by chance, you miss me, listen to this song. If that person hurts you, listen to this song (no no)
If you keep missing me, sing this song. It's my last gift prepared for you. (bye bye)

If that person asks about me, just say you don't know anything. It's okay for you to.
If I can't hold back and end up calling you at night, making you cry, ask that person to stay by your side.

Don't look back at such a unfortunate person like me. You don't even have to remember me, it's not like I left any traces.
I never even did anything for you anyway so just turn back.
Even this feeling of longing has become a luxury so just erase me.
Live happily, please. Just live happily for yourself.
Forget something like me and live happily, live happily

I'm sorry that I can't be by your side

Even If You Leave Me (Romanization)

niga nareul tteonado neol jikyeo bol su itdamyeon nan haengbokhae nan haengbokhae geugeollo dwae
dareun pume angyeodo nal gieokhago itdamyeon nan haengbokhae nan haengbokhae geugeollo dwae
eodiseodeun apeuji malgo sal ppaen dago bap gurmji malgo geu saram apeseo deo deo useo jwoya hae yeppeuge

hoksi naega geuriul ttaen i norael deureo geu sarami apeugehal ttaen i norael deullyeojwo (sirheo sirheo)
jakku naega bogopeul ttaen i norael bulleo neol wihae junbihan nae majimak seonmureul (annyeong annyeong)

geu sarami gakkeumeun nareul mureo bondamyeon moreunda hae beoryeotda hae geuraedo dwae
hoksirado naega mot chama bamsae neoui jeonhwal ullimyeon geu saram gyeoteuroga jikyeo dallahae wo~wo

dora bojima nagachi bulhaenghan nom gieokhal pillyodo eobseo heunjeokdo eobseul mom
eochapi haejun geotdo eobseo kkalkkeumhage doraseo
geuriumdo sachingeol wanjeonhi nal jiwo haengbokhage sara jwo jebal geureoke neoreul wihae sara
nagateun geon ije ijeo haengbokhage sara haengbokhage sara

mianhae ni gyeote isseo jul suga eobseo

57th

2010-10-29T06:16:00.000-07:00

佛陀弟子阿难出家前，在道上见一少女，从此爱慕难舍。

佛祖问他，你有多喜欢此女？

阿难回答：

“我愿化身石桥，受五百年风吹，五百年日晒，五百年雨打， 但求此少女从桥上走过。”

有个年轻美丽的女孩，出身豪门，家产丰厚，又多才多艺，日子过得很好。
媒婆也快把她家的门槛给踩烂了，但她一直不想结婚，因为她觉得还没见到她真正想要嫁的那个男孩。
直到有一天，她去一个庙会散心，于万千拥挤的人群中，看见了一个年轻的男人，不用多说什么，反正女孩觉得那个男人就是她苦苦等待的结果了。
可惜，庙会太挤了， 她无法走到那个男人的身边，就这样眼睁睁的看着那个男人消失在人群中。
后来的两年里，女孩四处去寻找那个男人，但这人就像蒸发了一样，无影无踪。
女孩每天都向佛祖祈祷，希望能再见到那个男人。
她的诚心打动了佛祖，佛祖显灵了。
佛祖说：“你想再看到那个男人吗？”
女孩说：“是的！我只想再看他一眼！”
佛祖：”你要放弃你现在的一切，包括爱你的家人和幸福的生活。”
女孩：“我能放弃！”
佛祖：“你还必须修炼五百年道行，才能见他一面。你不后悔么？”
女孩：“我不后悔！”
女孩变成了一块大石头，躺在荒郊野外，四百多年的风吹日晒，苦不堪言，但女孩都觉得没什么，难受的是这四百多年都没看到一个人，看不见一点点希望，这让她都快崩溃了。
最后一年，一个采石队来了，看中了她的巨大，把她凿成一块巨大的条石，运进了城里，他们正在建一座石桥，于是，女孩变成了石桥的护栏。
就在石桥建成的第一天，女孩就看见了，那个她等了五百年的男人！
他行色匆匆，像有什么急事，很快地从石桥的正中走过了，当然，他不会发觉有一块石头正目不转睛地望着他。
男人又一次消失了，再次出现的是佛祖。
佛祖：“你满意了吗？”
女孩：“不！为什么？为什么我只是桥的护栏？如果我被铺在桥的正中，我就能碰到他了，我就能摸他一下！”
佛祖：“你想摸他一下？那你还得修炼五百年！”
女孩：“我愿意！”
佛祖：“你吃了这么多苦，不后悔？”
女孩：“不后悔！”
女孩变成了一棵大树，立在一条人来人往的官道上，这里每天都有很多人经过，女孩每天都在近处观望，但这更难受，因为无数次满怀希望的看见一个人走来，又无数次希望破灭。
不是有前五百年的修炼，相信女孩早就崩溃了！
日子一天天的过去，女孩的心逐渐平静了，她知道，不到最后一天，他是不会出现的。
又是一个五百年啊！最后一天，女孩知道他会来了，但她的心中竟然不再激动。
来了！他来了！他还是穿着他最喜欢的白色长衫，脸还是那么俊美，女孩痴痴地望着他。
这一次，他没有急匆匆的走过，因为，天太热了。
他注意到路边有一棵大树，那浓密的树荫很诱人，休息一下吧，他这样想。
他走到大树脚下，靠着树根，微微的闭上了双眼，他睡着了。
女孩摸到他了！他就靠在她的身边！
但是，她无法告诉他，这千年的相思。她只有尽力把树荫聚集起来，为他挡住毒辣的阳光。
千年的柔情啊！
男人只是小睡了一刻，因为他还有事要办，他站起身来，拍拍长衫上的灰尘，在动身的前一刻，他抬头看了看这棵大树，又微微地抚摸了一下树干，大概是为了感谢大树为他带来清凉吧。
然后，他头也不回地走了！就在他消失在她的视线的那一刻，佛祖又出现了。
佛祖：“你是不是还想做他的妻子？那你还得修炼……”
女孩平静地打断了佛祖的话：“我是很想，但是不必了。”
佛祖：“哦？”
女孩：“这样已经很好了，爱他，并不一定要做他的妻子。”
佛祖：“哦！”
女孩：“他现在的妻子也像我这样受过苦吗？”
佛祖微微地点点头。
女孩微微一笑：“我也能做到的，但是不必了。”
就在这一刻，女孩发现佛祖微微地叹了一口气，或者是说，佛祖轻轻地松了一口气。
女孩有几分诧异，“佛祖也有心事么？”
佛祖的脸上绽开了一个笑容：“因为这样很好，有个男孩可以少等一千年了，他为了能够看你一眼，已经修炼了两千年。”

56th

2010-10-16T09:26:00.000-07:00

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think that she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Just the way u r from Bruno Mars... really like it.. romantic? kind of =)

be just the way u r.. natural u.. without acting or watever.. real u.. n never change for anything one.. non of them understand more then u.. the life style that make u happy.. hold it, it's ur life..

tired day.. good night sweet heart... i gonna go to bed with the song now =)

55th

2010-10-15T08:59:00.000-07:00

ahhhaaa!!

today in taylor's we got the polo car road show.. i don really know wat is it..
but well.. after malaysian study we got no accounting class until 2.30 so we just walk slow, eat slow n watch show! xD

n ya.. we saw the polo car road show..
n the camera man ask me to join i was huh? no i can't i can't..
haha. after a while that's a guy showing beatboxing skill in the roadshow..
*btw, for thw top5 who got the most "like" for their performing video will got RM1k for reward*

n ya.. i feel that................ my classmate CAN DO BETTER THEN HIM.. haha..
so we just call him n help him fill up the form n he's IN.. hahaaaaaa..

then when Jun came he just wan to know who did the beatbox? xD i just answer : u can do so much better then him :)

he joined last min nnnnnnnnnnnn he did a great job!!! n cause he was so blur n don even know wat competition is it n he just did a performance Dylan n Andy helped him to asked for a 2nd chance to redo it :) nice one JUN!!!

he is so good in learning other language as well haha..
his gf so cute ~~

in class, Mr.Toney was late.. n thankx to Andy have a fun time with us xD
Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby

n Chris!!! told u don kacau when i'm driving~!! see, jun join ur game now!! X_X

i love my class DT37

54th

2010-10-07T21:01:00.000-07:00

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

that's no hottie in singapore.. poor thing.. well, this trip i never met any prettie n hottie in the city..
but last time i do.. sighh...

Sparks fly
It's like electricity
I might die when I forget how to breath
You get closer
And there's no where in this world I'd rather be
Time stops
Like everything around me is frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you'd open my mind to things I've never seen

54th

2010-10-03T20:41:00.000-07:00

yo yo~ it's vacation!

I'm the the top city of South East Asia~ S.I.N.G.A.P.O.R.E

[llllllllllll ]80% loading .... it's not over.. it just brand new starting point

after i end my vacation term2 coming =)

will be continue. . . . ...

53th

2010-10-01T08:29:00.000-07:00

happy~ today is my last day of term1 in Taylor's..
n i actually pass my geo~~ wwweeeee~~
after test i went redbox together with connie, foong, xin n kc~
actually ching nee they all also went redbox but we had book thru the phone call..

N................

we got an AMAZING room! this room can fit more then 20 ppl i guess =)~~

it got 2 tvs, bars, large sofa (i actually rolling on it hehe) and a mini state~ check this out!

it's the bar.. just pretending xD

connie & xin

guess wat song i'm singing? (let me figure it out xD too many songs.. drama queen~~)

SS in the toilet.. "as usual~~"

gold fish o^^o

i like this xD.. 1st time take picture like "this"

the 4 in the house~ tall to short xP i'm evil..

foong foong.. big fan of lee hom

kc be the camera man xD

big big big big sofa ever in redbox~~

connieee

this time xin be the camera man XD

really thank you guys.. enjoying the time that we together =) proved that buddy 4ever.. singk kaki~!!

miss high school time n miss u guys always..

n today i'm totally out!! maybe is because of friends, maybe is because of exam over, maybe because of i pass my geo, maybe because of i'm not thinking about any other else other then throw myself into the songs n mood =)

well~ as long as.. WE R HAPPY~ if we r happy now, wat else matter? :)

52th

2010-09-29T08:21:00.000-07:00

so fast.... =(
my term 1 of college life end soon..
1stly was alone then get to know new friends, new subject, new building..
life style had change..
feel bored of driving.. yadayada..
n now.. 2 more days..
n say bye to the pass.. don look back.. keep forward..

some human said don look back! face the future..
but some how.. if u don look back.. how u know wat u actually lefting behind u..?

i really enjoying class in DT37.. although have to be formal everyday.. heels.. killing me in the 1st mouth.. == snail speed lift.. n soon DT37 will split into 2 groups.. sigh.. why...... but everyone knew wat's the problem right.. n i really really enjoy the time that we had been together.. stuck in hostel, sleep in hostel, visiting ppl's hostel xD fun though.. also really enjoy DT34 trip.. best trip ever.. n get to know wat is college life all about.. thx..

trying my best to work on for my life.. holding something on hand.. don feel like giving up since train for so many year.. ermm.. time will choose for me..

feel so tired nowadays.. zzZZ

51th

2010-09-27T08:47:00.000-07:00

maybe I'm the one who expecting too much..
feel like listen to the sound of sea wave......

50th

2010-09-24T10:47:00.000-07:00

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到
心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己
像是空气
大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我
笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑
最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意
听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望
装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情

49th

2010-09-18T09:54:00.000-07:00

dear diary...

I'm gonna make them regret..

we're gonna make them regret for it, okay?

alright...

i will be here for u..

so don cry....

the pain from the heart will gone k;

after u face the pain from the body..

don cry.. not deserve.. at all...

wrap of Ur tears let's do it again..

49th

2010-09-17T08:24:00.000-07:00

---dear diary...,

i'm upset.. really upset..

i don wan to give up, i never ask to give up in this sport..
really.. if i wan to give up 4years or 5years ago i will already let it go.. but i hold it until today..
maybe i pause after SPM was wrong....
i shouldn't pause.. pause doesn't mean stop right..

this year finally i step back on the mat.. realize.. everything change...

last time in school team girls need to base base base base..
now they wan girl fly fly fly fly..

CHARM i really don know wat to say.. i wan to try but in this moment everything make me hard to cross this line...

some says, they only care about team A

some says, they only care about the boys n the girl who can fly very well n flexible n they look at weight nyadayada..
so? not i don wan to fly right.. in high school who wan to base me? boys n girls split into 2 n do their own stuff.. weight i really don know wat to say.. i'm speechless.. totally..
now wat i'm trying to do is stretch my leg every night before i sleep.. stretching my non-usual leg..
back hand spring i tried before wat.. thx to don know who say stop n just leave it..

i'm not blaming anyone here diary.. i just... i just upset..

it used to be wat i proud of.. but now..... ya.. when i'm in high school..
i don wan to give it up....... i'm so down.................
i bleed, i cry, all the pain, all the injury.... sigh..

*smile*
but i guess they might be saying.. so? so wat? everyone do not only u..

///// rannie day;
\\\\\\ rannie heart;
//////

in this moment my heart is bleeding...........
this feeling make me feel that i'm so useless........
in this moment my confident all gone... gone
u r so cruel... to me......
i never ever feel this way before.. fail! wat i build up for so many years now i feel like it's all drop!
u make me so down CRUEL U! *tears drop*

48th

2010-09-16T08:15:00.001-07:00

i used to be a normal girl with normal friends, normal family, normal life...
it had change since 9 years ago..
i move away from my usual place from here to there..
have to be independent or else nothing i can do..

thw world is cruel when i'm in primary, in high school, move on to work, now college......
u can't 100% guess ppl's mind..
u can still guess but.... always try to keep the last card to ur self.. no all-in

primary to high school now college..
not used to camera now i do
not used to smile now i do
not used to this not used to that..
not used to be too friendly now i still.....

someone said i'm talk a lot... in my heart was thinking: i don think u wan to know how i looks when i'm quiet.
used to be cold...
used to be a damn it dumb stupid girl who easy control by other ppl now i don't...
at lease at this moment..
i don know..

sometimes.. when i'm mad... i'm not really show n the devil will pop out n talk to me..
go ahead, u r right n they r wrong.. why r u keeping it to urself.. u r cruel.. to ur own self! u shall love urself more n don really bother about them..
angel will said: don keep it in ur heart tell them in a good way although they wont listen..

but i guess i more to the devil side.. i shall keep some for it.. *silent*
when u met the person same as u only u will feel it..
others if it bother u, u can throw it to the trashcan

i am still me.. but now i'm in the 50 50 world..
when i got it until 85 n i'm will be the winner

--dear diary, u r the one who understand me the most--

47th

2010-09-16T01:01:00.000-07:00

just feel like post something here but i have no idea about wat to post actually..
happiness or sadness?
it's so complicated... *sigh*

in this moment i feel like post something happy like my college life, new friends, connie, foong, Penang trip fun..

but now I'm not really happy..
i am not happy.
*sigh*
something bothering me

aarrrgghhh.. 难道这是18岁的烦恼？有够白痴 ==

aahhh.. let's talk about happy thingy lah..
well.. let's welcome the DT37 haha..
i meet a lot of friends they all very fun funny.. ermm.. ya.. haha

Ching Nee.. from SRJK(C)Sungai Way.. wth right.. i also cannot remember her face.. wkaka...n she's the boy boy (u will find out why) orang jepun.. i 'za' her during the independent day.. u know how japan fight with tanah melayu ar? Merdeka!! hahaaaaa

Maliewann.. Mixture baby from local Thailand n local Chinese.. so she's local don ask her anything about Thailand she don know, ok.. don bully my friend lah.. xD

PeiLy.. homesick baby from Pahang.. cheer up girl.. cry can call us de mah =)

Si Pei.. the “放肆”creator.. cute n blur nuts
[this is roughly the ppl that i mix with or sit with in class lol]

Dylan.. Jellyfish from Penang. the girl girl xD video maker, hardworking =)
Chris Na... Sodium? haha to much chemistry then.. CheSong Oppa ^^ whenever he call me throw the phone i told myself have to use Korean n said yoposeyo? but fail always, cause i do HELLO? omggg.. FAILLL.. ei ei but he safe my life during lagoon le..
YouJun.. the pro of presentation.. everytime ChiChi i don know wat to do but in the end.. ==
Epoi, Kelly, Andy n others the fun kaki.. haha.. in class we have to try our best to speak the proper English because some of them wont understand ==
so.. ya.. try ur best..

andddd... the DT34! our senior lah actually..
JC--- Miss.Taylor's 2010
Vanessa---- mixture baby of indian n chinese.. state swimmer.. friendly :)
izwan--- same hometown with me.. during the penang trip we both suddenly hometown sick when we passed by perak.. omgg..
ofcasue that's more but i don know the name.. haha

N Maliewann, Ching Nee n I met the 'monkey', 'banana tree' and the 'banana' during the DT34 penang trip..
Vanessa so happy when she saw 6 of us became friends. lolx.. i know the feeling.. haha
haha.. we always say.. the monkey hide behind the banana tree n eating banana.. xD
fun..

ya.. and that's all the new faces that i met in Taylor's.. hhuuu~~~

11 days of holidays for Raya.. 6 days working... haihz..
miss connie n foong so badly.. but at lease we met...

---continue.....---

46th

2010-09-08T16:38:00.000-07:00

下雨天了怎么办我好想你
不敢打给你我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

never think that i will reopen my blog with this kind of mood.. i though i wil post something else which is more to happy side..
see, u just can't guess the world.

突然有一天想通了不会有结局，
不一样的观点，不一样的思想
只会让事情更难堪
好的朋友不一定是好的情人
而不好的朋友不一定是不好的情人
当时玩笑开大了。。好累

45th

2010-07-29T17:53:00.000-07:00

California girls
We're unforgettable
Daisy Dukes
Bikinis on top
Sun-kissed skin
So hot
We'll melt your Popsicle
Oooooh oh oooooh

so long never update my bloggy d.. oh well, college term1 get start..
wearing formal to class everyday [don ask me why]

today is orangdation party n tomorrow world stage!!!!!!!!!
wuuuhoooo!

i can't wait i can't wait

Tokio Hotel

the california girl Katy Perry

thanks suann papa!!! love u muax muax muax muax!!

back to college.. i think my group were quite friendly n in class we have a litter group already.. haha.. not really but we girls like to sit together..

n English will be the 1st very 1st language in our class second for me it's Mandarin :)
my class was quite international ppl coming from every way but not only Malaysian unlike other subject like SAM all that bla bla bla.. Yen Lin's class only Malaysian, smart Malaysian.. A(s) hunter

alright, for the class so far i feel it's ok.. (just the air condition some time it's not functioning =.=) when the temperature increase our focus decrease.. sad ya haha.. same to the lecture xP

well, is it because of the 'power' of MTV world stage 2010 Live in Malaysia i keep singing California Girl n keep shouting Tokio Hotel! wwuuhhooo aaahhhaaa aha aha aahaaa
HERE WE COME!

44th

2010-07-22T07:43:00.000-07:00

working? world stage?
enjoy? money?
wat the hack.. i work for long enough a d lo.. but event job is wat i looking for.. [never try b4 mah..]
haihz.. but world stage one year once n tokio hotel~ Katy perry~~

btw, it's my 2nd day of college d..
as i know.. my class will be quite international..
today the tourism theory should be end at 1p.m. but who know the lecture talk about 15min then finish d.. cause we r too quite n no questions.. when he knows it's only 10.45a.m. he said we can have a longer time to enjoy our meal, eat slowly... haha that's how Frances ppl doing..

today when Sunway to gave a surprise to him xD
SURPRISE~~
but kar xin actually wearing the Taylor's t-shirt n i'm holding the Taylor's water bottle n it cause us so embarrassing.. walk around in Sunway.. but actually human be lah will compare btw Taylor's n Sunday.. lol..
seen tired.. rest more le bendan == panda eye so cham d

2nd day of school, n those ppl start telling us all the rules thingy d.. wat the....... haihz the dress code.. n the examination.... sigh sigh..
*scary*

chill chill.. second day only le pls..
tired.. sleep soon..
cya~

43rd

2010-07-19T10:10:00.000-07:00

alright.. how long i never touch my blog already? erm.. watever..
rather writing other then typing the keyboard.. but ya, I'm typing..
well, remind me of replacing the some post for Cheer 2010 one, Bon Odori one, Twilight Saga one, ermm.. that's all i guess..

Happy happy birthday to Steven Tai~~~
20th a d.. n his bday was his 1st day of degree xD
he will remember it i guess =P

haha.. today was Out.. my 'kaki' all met in one day..

[no ranking pls.. ;)]

kaki gang no.1
Connie, kar foong, hui xin
seafield kaki
girls talk girls talk n girls talk.. shopping, shooting kaki forever... other then this, singK also is our fav XD

kaki gang no.2
kar xin, steven tai
kaki lepak no.1.. yamcha n drive around.. funny.. taylor's + seafield kaki make us like to yamcha together xD

kaki gang no.3
chee leong
event, event n event.. this guy don know ajak me for event how many years a d..

kaki gang no.4
siew wei, chi chung, mervyn, jee hong
another gang of yamcha.. although we long time met once but we enjoy the time that we had.. all diff college diff location.. lol.. rojak?

this wednesday ur Miss. Chi Kei finally (ya ya.. i knew kar foong they all very happy about it ==) going to college already.. swt right.. register since march but July start school..
well well well, wat can i do ya? but lucky in taylor's still got kar xin n steven.. don know anything or before i got friends still can ask them for help.. thx thx.. u know.. i easy go sesat xD
the 2 inch GPS might not use full if i got it xD

[PS: i guess i own my blog one more post very soon... TAYLOR'S.. (not the twilight guy ok..)]
so small n shouting left! left! left!! haha..
well, it's a jok between my mumy n i xP

42nd

2010-07-07T08:51:00.000-07:00

7/7 looks like logo of lighting isn't?
but ya.. today was a rainnie day..

today early in the morning not really in good mood ==
thinking a lot about this weekends.. lol..

stupid ppl keep stealing CKjeans items! sozai lo.. if no money don wear lah wat for be a thief??
cause bad mood..

tired of working.. ouch.... oh my.. it's another full shift..
casue bad mood..

kena FFk [k lah i know it's raining..]
cause bad mood..

meng zeng d..

call tak kena, text no reply
cause bad mood..

totally up = makes me take a lot of chocolate food n sugar.. --> high per swt"
[u know when i'm in bad mood use to take sweet stuff ==]
feels bad cause angry of him for no reason.. lol.. my bad my bad..
call my dad to kacau him xD

he said if spain lose he don wan to work for half day to show his sadness xD do it if u dare.. wkakakaaa..
Netherlands won with 3-2.. oh my...
i keep talk good about CK Jeans until he feel like trying CK Jeans n give up LIVE'S d.. haha..
ei ei CK Jeans more expensive le.. but more comfortable X)

tonight [or maybe morning] will be a Spain night or Germany night?
check it out then :) 2am Malaysia time.. sleeping time haha..

WAKA WAKA eh eh.. this time for Afica FIFA 2010

41st

2010-06-29T07:54:00.000-07:00

No I can't forget this evening Or your face as you were leaving But I guess that's just the way The story goes You always smile but in your eyes Your sorrow shows Yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow When I think of all my sorrow When I had you there But then I let you go And now it's only fair That I should let you know What you should know

I can't live If living is without you I can't live I can't give anymore I can't live If living is without you I can't give I can't give anymore

Well I can't forget this evening Or your face as you were leaving But I guess that's just the way The story goes You always smile but in your eyes Your sorrow shows Yes it shows

I can't live If living is without you I can't live I can't give any more I can't live If living is without you I can't give I can't give anymore

***

Too much of anything can make you sick
Even the good can be a curse
Makes it hard to know which road to go down
Knowing too much can get you hurt

Is it better? Is it worse?
Are we sitting in reverse?
It's just like we're going backwards
I know where I want this to go
Driving fast but let's go slow
What I don't wanna do is crash, no

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

***

went lagoon today.. it's raining day but it's fine for me..

hope i wont fall sick CKJeans having Sells now ==

miss u caramel..

hope u never fall sick too.. take care..

40th

2010-06-20T08:19:00.000-07:00

父亲节快乐！！
爸爸，祝你身体健康！

今天我遇到天使喔。
他是客人两岁半的儿子，好可爱哦。
他都不怕生，他妈妈说其实他是看心情的 =)
一开始有些害羞但后来逗了他一会儿就放松了。
他说他3岁但给我5个手指，应该是还不灵活吧
后来说他1岁，我就说1岁的手指不是这样的
然后他妈妈说他2岁半了，我就帮他把手指弄成V型说他2岁；然后像和外星人一样和他的小手连在一起×Ting×
他笑得好纯洁，好可爱。
他拉着我,小手拉大手看着更衣间的镜子微笑。
他也不管他爸妈了，他爸妈也放心地看衣服。

我蹲下和他说话，他要我抱他起来，怕瓜田李下，我一会儿就放他下来了。
他看着我，眨着小眼，可爱的抱了我一下。
他用他的的小手摸我的脸颊，被我逗着笑了。

临走前还拥抱了我几次，吻了一下我的脸颊才离开。
还跟错人说再见，去和妈妈说再见。

单纯，可爱的笑容真迷人。
小孩子只在乎你发自内心的笑容来给予安全感，不会想太多什么金钱，地位。。
那份可贵的心，天使的心。

PS：不晓得我的小孩有没有那么可爱和漂亮 xP

39th

2010-06-18T09:04:00.000-07:00

--GAME OVER--

38th

2010-06-17T07:48:00.000-07:00

i guess it's time to update my litter bloggy d... since like now got a topic to blog about...
finally it's the day to alor star for cooc's ( my auntie) wedding..
woke up in 4 something in the morning n reach airport around 6.. lol..
wat u guys were doing in 6 in the morning look at my face n my 'gold fish' eye then know a d..
the the van who sent us there was so.............. . . . anyways just make u can't sleep..

they said don bring yellow n red shirt to thailand but i brought a red bag n red shoes.. swt''

jun wei my litter cousin..

morning~ **sleepy

it's airasia.. it looks like cotton candy isn't?

for the 1st day we went perlis all the way from kedah.. n it's so tiring.. haihz.. we all already not enough sleep n rest lah pls.. == but still.. we went a gunung ( 4got the name) n padi muzinum..
btw, here is paddy every way.. i promise..

2nd day.. finally.. n this time we be the sister again to block the door n get some angpao xD

but 1st angpao..... RM2??!! wat the?? n he said he took the wrong one.. lucky.. or else just lock u outside n don't think about married xD

n we got some idea to kacau my uncle xD wearing a 'cute' (ugly but not so adorable) mask to dance Bad Romance by Lady Gaga n Nobody by Wonder Girl..
Result came out... : he not good in dancing.. n the best man never help at all.. wat a good friend man..

look at my auntie also know how funny is it a d xD

wedding dinner at night.. n the food is.......... Halal.. kinda SWT"" but we r at kedah so.. understand~~

the 'chee' cheerleaders

serena.. my cousin from singapore

went thailand next day.. but for half a day only ==

cause the car from thailand can't come in m'sia n same as m'sia car can't go into thailand.. n my very 1st thailand trip been use in hap zai pasar ==

kind of swt n sad case.. but it's a quite special expired..
they got not much thing to buy for me...

after cross this line~~ land of thai~
cocacola bottle in ori n thai style~ my grandma as background xD

so adorable!!!!

enjoying cutting price right here.. we had try cut the price for my hill from 280thai become 200thai n for my shirt from 80thai for neck lacks, 230thai a dress n 180thai from shirt became 50thai fro each neck lacks, 200thai fro dress n 150 for shirt..

the ppl in hap zai very nice.. althought u only have a look but never buy they also wont show u a long face =) i like it.. n right here u can speck chinese, hok ken then can talk a d xD

n the thai words that i had learn from the ppl in thailand was 'loot' means hot.. xD swt'' right.. the weather really really hot!! but still can tahan lo.. it's time to say hi to m'sia n say bye to thailand~

i miss thailand its a good place =)

but ofcause i miss my bed more.. tiring~~!!
going back with plan also.. but back with firefly.. firefly actually smaller then airasia but they have a good smile.. aiya.. forgot to try shopping on air == well.. never mind..

look! the sky, the sea n the land in the same picture!! enjoying~~

wednesday as usual swimming with su ann.. this time.. i fetch her.. hehe.. luycky she never vomit or dizzy or watever.. haha,.

we both r M.A.C lover.. they r really friendly n wont force us to buy n give good advice to us.. love MAC.. btw, where can i get a "I LOVE M.A.C" t-shirt?

Su Ann we will go kalaok together one day.. lol..

a chocolate bring us back together =)

37th

2010-06-06T19:12:00.000-07:00

June... one n half more months to go..

so fast.. 2010 half year pass a d... get older faster?? no no no!!
well, coming soon event in my family will be my youngest auntie wedding =)
haha wish can ask her wat's the feeling of end up her single life +D

n for Vulanz!!
I'm so proud of u guys for did a great job in S.O.X finals!!
we r waiting for so many years for a tittle of best showmanship!!
I'm sorry about i can't be there.. Agong's birthday can't off..
hard work will pay.. work harder girls n boys!!
enjoy ur cheer camp =)
eat, sleep, CHEER!!
n don miss facebook so much lah == it's only 3 days per year

btw, i love the cheer bottles :)

36th

2010-06-04T08:55:00.000-07:00

Yeah~~ 老板万岁！
爸爸最好了～～ XD

万岁万岁万岁～！

35th

2010-06-03T07:48:00.000-07:00

well.... it's Wednesday n su ann n i went 3k to have some moves again..

haha we meet the same uncle xD

so paise..

we swam
su ann ter-kena my hand once
we laugh in the pool n nearly drink the disgusting pool water
i ter-kick su ann's nose once
i (again) ter-kick su ann's nose
n she don wan to swim at the back xD
lazy move out from the pool
have our own sweet time in the toilet (shut, where's my tower ==)
eat in 3k again == every week we do

this time we watch movie after 3k, it's movie day = Wednesday~ cheaper..

have a walk in pyramid.. n we found out it's hand to not passing by MAC n SaSa.. T.T but of cause we do control our self xP

n chee leong join us also.. forgot to say that n sorry to say that he been forgotten when we r in the DVD shop..

actually it's not the 1st time su ann n chee leong watch movie haha don know how many years ago we watch harry potter together..

movie start n we r still noisy.. the stupid chee leong keep giving out comment.. u r fifi lah dumb dumb

the cat so cute~~~~~~~~~ big n watery eyes.. adorable!!

n we want to watch toy story3!!!!!

34th

2010-06-02T05:17:00.000-07:00

真的很无奈，你不高兴可以说出来但，为什么你就是喜欢给脸色我看？
如果我给回你看，我想你应该会一巴掌扫过来了吧！

我不是喜欢哭的人，但为什么？想到你们就会哭？不争气
i try to do my best for u 你看到吗？

在你眼里有我吗？吃饭多一双筷子？晒多一件衣服？还是多一个人做家务？

你女儿做了校队你有开心吗？你女儿做了队长你有骄傲吗？你一点好话都没有说，还教训我？？
但当你儿子做了副队长你却说要庆祝。
我去过那么多比赛和表演你一个也没看，只弹不赞。

我可以因为你不喜欢而放我朋友鸽子，因为你一句话故意陪你聊天看电视怕你闷。。
人家说你疼我对不起我看不到。
只要你高兴一通电话要我回家，好我到了家，家里一个人都没有，没晚餐但又不给我和朋友吃，自己吃饱了回到家叫我和弟弟的朋友吃。我和他们很熟吗
你心情好就会睬我，买东西给我和我聊天；不好就要我死一边。
知道你辛苦爸爸在国外要独立，六年级到现在出街的交通和用的钱都是自己，巴士迟了还要被骂，说我往外跑再跑就打断我的脚。不管你是在什么情况下说，我还是会不开心的好吗？
我不像弟弟会拍马屁，不会逗你开心。但不可以否认我在乎这个家。
不可以对你乱发脾气，不可以对你大声嚷嚷，选择不要和你闹忍下来你又有话吵！拿东西说我发死鬼脾气丢东西，关门太大声说我不服气，说错话又说我没用脑，不对又要赶快换去开玩笑的语气。。

你要整样？我也长大有我自己的思想了。。或许在你眼里我不会想但我也会不开心的我很羡慕我的朋友们自己有决定权是因为之前我让你太放心而弄到你现在不放心吗？
wat do u wan from me? 不要说没要求，你的没要求就是最大的要求

哭的样子真难看，丑死了。。

33rd

2010-05-26T03:19:00.000-07:00

suann just went back.. ~~~

n today she show me the gummy bear song.. which is..
quite cute but she makes me sing along.. WTH~~~

went 3K.. tired.. but still we went pyramid xD~ M.A.C n also sasa.. xoxo Suann..
n also Anna Sui..

n we wait for the bus for so damn long~~~~~~ ==

ya.. so... while online we open our blog n she say my layout sound wrong.. i was??? huh???
Wanna be on top? [actually i got this line from America Next Top Model]
so..... i got no idea... just change it to one of my post which is i post it few days ago on facebook..

well.. tired.. chou

32nd

2010-05-25T07:47:00.000-07:00

i love those love songs nowadays i don know why..
mood change maybe.. nowadays that always in my mind.. shh..
he wont knows.. he's dumb.. stupid..

hope he wont scared of me after he notes.. =(

actually be with him make me believe in forever.. lol..

I'm a bad bad person.. i knew, n also greedy

really love those lovely songs..
hey soul sister n Lucky.. i knew i love u, how do i live, my heart will go on, without u.. nice..

lucky I'm in love with my best friend

lol.. ppl will change.. maybe he or she is ur bff last time but maybe few years never met they will never be the same.. i guess lah.. don know how about others..

but maybe for me in the end become 'Nothing on U'..

beautiful girl all over the world i could be chasing but my time will be wasting they got nothing on u baby.. nothing on u baby.. u might just say hi n they might say hey.. they got nothing on u baby.....

she's always on my mind,
from the time i wake up
'till i close my eyes
she's everywhere i go
she's all i know

though she's so far away
it's just keeps getting stronger
every day
and even now she's gone
i'm still holding on

so tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

chorus:
maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

my friends keep telling me
that if you really love her
you've gotta set her free
and if she returns in kind
i'll know she's mine

so tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

chorus

why i live in despair
'cause wide awake or dreaming
i know she's never there
and all these time i act so brave
i'm shaking inside
why does it hurt me so...

chorus

heaven knows

31st

2010-05-21T19:44:00.001-07:00

i don know wat i am thinking.. will the tarot be true.. i know it wasn't good if i trust tarot too much..
but i feel like wat it said it show.. omg...
never mind Chi Kei.. just be urself. just keep going just keep going... -.-"

i wan to study T.T i miss those time when i am hugging my books, doing homework together with friends, cheer practise practise n practise after school, running around the school looking for teachers for homework, project, cheerleading, fly to other ppl class xD.. wuuuhh.. bad girl..
well.. i never said i'm good before xP

haihz.. bored.. just talking nonsense here.. thinking monsense also..

cold.... need hugs.. [don face the aircond lah then -.-] . . .

最熟悉的陌生人
还记得吗窗外那被月光染亮的海洋
你还记得吗是爱让彼此把夜点亮
为何后来我们用沉默取代依赖
曾经朗朗星空渐渐阴霾嗯～

＃心碎离开转身回到最初荒凉里等待
为了寂寞是否找个人填心中空白
我们变成了世上最熟悉的陌生人
今后各自曲折～　各自悲哀～

△只怪我们爱得那么汹涌爱得那么深
于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了却回不了神

如果当初在交会时能忍住了激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里沉沦

Repeat　＃,△

我们变成了世上最熟悉的陌生人今后各自曲折～　各自悲哀～

只怪我们爱得那么汹涌爱得那么深
于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里沉沦

也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里沉沦～

30th

2010-05-18T08:40:00.000-07:00

maybe it's a lit bit too late but i would like to block about it.. lol

3rd may
start working at CKjeans.. lol...

XXth may
ermm.. off day n went kin gwn's house for singk [actually teman kar foong but i enjoy also lah.. lol] we asked tarot questions.. n i guess now kin gwn know foong n i very well a d lol!!!!!
cannot cannot should ask him some questions also!!
watch IP MAN2. nice show haha.. i sit between foong n kin gwn.. kesian them xD
n this is kin gwn 1st time taking bus~ woo.. cool man.. butttt, unlucky at night we been waiting for the bus for more then an hour but no U63.. btw, kg n jii hong driving skill not bad XD

14th may
well.. it's my bigggg day in my life.. my lovely n sweet 18th birthday n connie lied to me none of them celebrated with me lol.. n kevin, foong, xin, yen lin, eug, ming han they all r sitting in the room n i was fully shock.
haha went we reach redbox cause i got no student ic so to get cheaper prise i have to hide 1st n used others student id n that ferler was like "r u guys room 25?" stupid kena connie kaokao.. haha.
i love u guys! never forget that day.. n thankx for everything..

15th may
Vulcanz won 2nd runner up in youth competition!!!! happy~~~~ =) sorry ya can't go there n support.. working lol...

16th may
drive to taipan.. lol.. n chee choon, chee kean they r like.. . . . *scared* == bad! evil!! xD after that drive my mom out to saloon n... i left my id at home.. ??!!! lucky my mom was there.. so.... pls check before u leave ur house ==

17th may
i had i weird dream.. i knew he's a good guy but i just can't figure it out.. a kiss? n i'm like half sitting half lying down de le.. n i look shy.. lol? should ask tarot about this == remind me..

erm.... ahh!! today i got my birthday present from my aunties :) thankx!!

**picture.. another day lah..

29th

2010-05-10T09:37:00.000-07:00

缘分啊缘分。。

要有多‘远’才有我‘份’。 ==

actually quite lot of thingy to update if i wan.. but i feel lazy now.. (as usual)

SHINee ♥ wonder who's the lucky girl that they sing for. if let them answer this question they sure will said 'our fans' lol..

i just love their voice.
lovely..

I know that
( My baby, I love you)
I gotta get over you
That’s right, that’s right
( My heart)

Look, just look at that look
She’s almost like me, saying how it’s easy to forget
I don’t want to believe it
(Oh ah) A restless night
I’m so sick of my head hurting
I get on my knees,
Hit my chest, and even if I cry,
Can something that can’t be done be done?

JoJo! When the sad music flows
I think of you (Eh eh eh)
JoJo! Why can’t I erase
A heartless you (Oh oh oh)

(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! What did I do wrong? I, I was blind
(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! I get trampled by both of your eyes
I, I was blind

So many nights, I wonder why
What can I do to make it right?
Everything will be all right
So JoJo, just tell me why

I don’t want to cry (Oh, ah)
My abandoned heart gets scratched deeply
I’m so sick of my head hurting

JoJo! When this bitter music stops
I want to send you away (Eh eh eh)
JoJo! Why can’t I, why can’t I
Erase a heartless you (Oh oh oh)

(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! What did I do wrong? I, I was blind
(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! I don’t know y-yet

Baby JoJo, do you know?
The heart here is also cold!
Baby, baby, why did you leave?
I cry and become exhausted
Waking up from a dream

JoJo! When the sad music flows
I think of you (Eh eh eh)
JoJo! Why can’t I erase
A heartless you (Oh oh oh)

JoJo! When this bitter music stops
I want to send you away (Eh eh eh)
JoJo! Why can’t I, why can’t I
Erase a heartless you (Oh oh oh)

(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! What did I do wrong? I, I was blind
(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! I get trampled by both of your eyes
I, I was blind

28th

2010-05-05T10:02:00.000-07:00

i don know wat is going on with my mind..
1stly i put
"boy boy boy.. now i feel like i like u can u feel that? but this feeling might 'pop' gone in next minute. so don break my heart ♥" on my facebook..
now i put
"stop calling! stop calling! i don wanna think anymore. i left my head n my heart on the dance floor"

i aslo don know y will i post it on..
wat am i think.. i'm thinking zero.

yesterday Ha n Sze Hou asked me to draw a bridge n on the bridge draw a human, a key n also an animal..
i draw my bridge in curve sharp n human centre key on end of left, animal on end on right..
n the explanation is...
i'm the human.. key = money, animal = lover..
this both r far from me. n i guess i can get either 1 only cause it on diff end..
n i have to work hard cause my bridge is curve but not flat.. haihz.. true also..

[Lady Gaga]
Hello
Hello, baby you called
I can't hear a thing
I have got no service in the club you see, see
Wa-wa-what did you say?
Huh? You're breaking up on me
Sorry, I cannot hear you
I'm kinda busy
K-kinda busy
K-kinda busy
Sorry; I cannot hear you
I'm kinda busy

Just a second; it's my favorite song they're gonna play and I cannot text you with a drink in my hand, eh?
You shoulda made some plans with me; you knew that I was free
And now you won't stop calling me
I'm kinda busy

Stop callin', stop callin'; I don't wanna think anymore! I left my head and my heart on the dance-floor
Stop callin'', stop callin; I don't wanna talk anymore! I left my head and my heart on the dance-floor

Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Stop telephonin' me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
I'm busy!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Stop telephonin' me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh

Can call all you want but there's no one home and you're not gonna reach my telephone!
'Cause I'm out in the club and I'm sippin' that bub' and you're not gonna reach my telephone

Call when you want but there's no one home
and you're not gonna reach my telephone
Out in the club and I'm sippin' that bub' and you're not gonna reach my telephone

[Beyonce]
The way you blowin' up my phone won't make me leave no faster, put my coat on faster, leave my girls no faster.
I shoulda left my phone at home 'cause this is a disaster!
Callin' like a collector
Sorry: I cannot answer!

Not that I don't like you: I'm just at a party
And I am sick and tired of my phone ri-ringing
Sometimes I feel like I live in Grand Central Station
Tonight I'm not takin no calls 'cause I'll be dancin'
'Cause I'll be dancin'
'Cause I'll be dancin'
Tonight I'm not takin' no calls 'cause I'll be dancin!

Stop callin', stop callin'; I don't wanna think anymore!; I got my head and my heart on the dance-floor
Stop callin', stop callin'; I don't wanna talk anymore!; I got my head and my heart on the dance-floor

Stop callin', stop callin'; I don't wanna think anymore! I got my head and my heart on the dance-floor
Stop callin', stop callin'; I don't wanna talk anymore! I got my head and my heart on the dance-floor

Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Stop telephonin' me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
I'm busy!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Stop telephonin' me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh

Can call all you want, but there's no one home
And you're not gonna reach my telephone
'Cause I'm out in the club and I'm sippin' that bub'
And you're not gonna reach my telephone

Call when you want, but there's no one home
And you're not gonna reach my telephone!
'Cause I'm out in the club, and I'm sippin' that bub'
And you're not gonna reach my telephone, my telephone, mi-mi-mi, my telephone
'Cause I'm out in the club and I'm sippin' that bub'
And you're not gonna reach my telephone
My telephone
Mi-mi-mi, my telephone
'Cause I'm out in the club and I'm sippin that bub' and you're not gonna reach my telephone

We're sorry; the number you have reached is not in service at this time
Please check the number, or try your call again

27th

2010-05-03T09:59:00.000-07:00

it's all about Tokio Hotel!!

well, actually it happened on the same day with S.O.X..

mean... morning go S.O.X n night go Tokio Hotel..

haha.. damn geng.. but the next day i'm like a fish out of water ==

btw, thankx to china press so that i can go 1Utama to see Tokio Hotel ^^

really really happy n thankx to my auntie help me go bangsar all the way to got the ticket n CD.

n also thankx to my Papa -- su ann to teman me go 1Utama n her sister fetch us go n back =)

ahh... so happy n feel so lucky

n it's should start at 6p.m. actually.. casue su ann have to work n that day actually raining n 1stly we r holding the umbrella in the concert n thankx to the rain god ppl r moving out so that we can go in frant n can see Tokio Hotel's face!!!

n while waiting for TH got few DJs who came for hitz.fm keep remix remix n remix those songs which is most of the song i don even know the names until everyone shout tokio! hotel! tokio! hotel!

n i say don tell me they will play Baby from justin b later n yet after 1 minute....

they're playing Baby n everyone singing baby baby baby oh~! baby baby baby baby oh~!

oh~~~~ i can see su ann face turning her face into green a d.. xD

so funny..

that's the gift from china press
it's time!!!

ohhh.. i just couldn't find a words during the concert

rock star!

solo part~

althougt they only came out for 1 hour ++ after we been waiting for since 7 but they r still great!

it happened something funny..

actually su ann n i plan to take for each other n suddenly pop out 2 guys n said wan to help us..

n i just straight away asked:

u wan to take also is it?

. . . .

n he stone for few seconds only say:

Ya..

so.. it the end he help us take n i help them to take photo..

but actually they're two person they can actually help each other to take right..

may be they wan both of them be in the picture i guess..

left: Su Ann, right:me XD

drink of the day after we shouting, screaming, cheering for Tokio Hotel..

yeah~

chill at coffee bean while waiting for su ann's sister.. ahhh, wish we can go when Tokio Hotel coming to Malaysia again~!!!

26th

2010-05-02T19:42:00.000-07:00

S.O.X S.O.X let's cheer for S.O.X!
yup! it's the time for school of X!

wooo~

1st of may at taylor's lakside campus because of this event yen lin overnight my house n we woke up at 5.30a.m. ==
it's kinda tiring but when we look at vulcanz had really work hard on it n the only thing we can do for them r try pur best to make damn not that tired, stress n done those bla bla bla (those small litter thingy)
trust me hard work will pay! don give up.. correct ur mistake n done it even better!
the next day should be highlight ---- 5th of june.. FINAL of event S.O.X

JJ best friend XD from hitz~

go girls!

check this out!

let's cheer for~~ V-U-L-C-A-N-Z go Vulcanz!

i say S u say O when i say X u shout S.O.X! S.O.X!

jiayou Ivy~

keep it up we r here for u always

25th

2010-04-22T22:13:00.000-07:00

well.. few days ago i had play those quiz on facebook.. n i like the resut.. lol..
it's kinda lame.. [ofcasue, that time i was so so so boring]
n today my dad finally back from sg. haha.. early in the morning then have to go airport n i had not enough sleep.. lol..

in alice in wonderland i like hatter X) i don know why someone said he's ugly someone said he's too mad n emotional. just don know why i like hatter character. n the other quiz which is about my birthday character n it was like.... so true.. lol..

Which Alice in Wonderland character are YOU?
Result: You are the Mad Hatter!
HEEHEE! You're absolutely mad, MAD, MAADD!!! You love to fool around, but at times you grow really serious. You like cakes, tea and tea PARTIES. And you are creative, so you love to design things. Some people may think you are act um... 'retarded' or 'idiotic' or 'stupi...d' and times, but really, you just wanna have fun! Though, when you get serious, some really horrid words come from you and you can't control your anger!
**
What does your birthday say about you?
Result: Patient, Dependable & Practical
You lead the way when it comes to reaping the rewards of hard work. You’re a lover of everything that is fine and beautiful, you surround yourself with material gains. Touch is very important in everything from work to romance. Stable and conservative, you are among the... most reliable of people. While sometimes viewed as stubborn, you will plod along on a task until the very end, ensuring that everything is up to standard. You're highly creative and thoroughly enjoy making things with their own hands. Favorable Colors: Pink Key Body Part: Neck, Throat Lucky Gem: Emerald Strengths: Dependable, patient, musical, practical. Weaknesses: Stubborn, uncompromising, possessive. Charismatic marks: Solid, big bones, tendency to gain weight. Likes: Gardening, cooking, working with hands, music, romance, high-quality clothing. Dislikes: Sudden changes, complications, insecurity of any kind, synthetic fabrics. Best environment: A secluded home close to nature. Good food is also important. Beauty and comfort are a must.

that's too many thing to blog about actually.. but i'm just lazy to do it.. lol..
well.. while mood it come it will comes.. haha

24th

2010-04-18T06:33:00.000-07:00

Sport's day 2010 SMK Seafield -- MPSJ
*
went seafield sport's day for vulcanz yesterday..
i can feel my blood is boiling~ why said so? cause i can feel the energy of CHEER~!
haha.. but we r already ex-seafieldens so we also don kacau so much lah of cause..
or else the HM n teachers, pengawas will be bising bising there ==

but before that yenlin n i went mcD with ah sien n James..
xP

the weather was so hot until i don wan to doff my cap.. (-.-)"

i just don know why when it's time to perform i feel nervous for them.. oh my...
btw, the routine over roll actually not bad.. haiyo, it's over n so so...

my form5 physic's teacher~!!! one of my fav teacher in seafield

esther erin, wei wen n jia yann~ nice scorpion

i'm so proud of u girls

yenlin, ah sien n i.. 1st year sport's day so free so relax.. xD

scorpion.. but feel a bit cacat.. LOL.. but luckily still can do

monkey = esther erin

the lady gaga pose.. ga ga wu la la~

stop calling stop calling i don wanna hear any more

~lovely~

23rd

2010-04-14T08:00:00.000-07:00

今天是黑色情人节噢也就是‘单身节’ =）

其实啊，身边有没有另一半不是重点，而是要活的快乐不后悔。

不要因为没有男/女朋友而对自己没信心！

18岁的青春就是要尝试嘛。

女生们不要怕说素颜男生会不要你，要想把自己打扮的漂漂亮亮才会更有自信，才开始想认识你才了解你，不然就自信到让男生后悔。

我和朋友已经计划好一大班‘单亲寡佬’有怎样庆祝单身节了 xD

終於可以在今天劃上句點
一整夜翻閱過去畫面
快想不起我們為何會訣別
只看到那雙你送的鞋
走一步又一步我才發現繞了個圈
走了好幾年又回到原點
你送的禮物
會不會太特別毫不避諱那不安的傳言
但漸行漸遠習慣到沒感覺
難道你早想要我走遠
你送的禮物
在此刻好體貼
陪我回憶把過往走一遍
穿了這些年難免會有污點
就像每段愛總會有終點
世上最殘酷的恐怕是時間
困住人一切卻還向前
乾涸的眼再擠不出一點鹹
愛到如此可悲的境界
走一步又一步卻跟不上你的腳步
你滿意了為什麼我卻只想要哭　
你送的禮物
會不會太特別毫不避諱
那不安的傳言但漸行漸遠
習慣到沒感覺難道你早想要我走遠
你送的禮物
在此刻好體貼陪我回憶把過往走一遍
穿了這些年
難免會有污點
就像每段愛總會有終點
你說做自己吧我們都做回自己
不要再為愛受委屈
你送的禮物
原來是一場劫
終於分別夙命一樣準確
可笑到想要
你賠給我時間
愛情有時廉價得可憐
光著腳我一路奔跑
鮮血淚水一路狂飆
收起我的驕傲
承認曾經備受煎熬
鞋上那記號
只有你能明瞭
過了這一夜我就全忘掉

22nd

2010-04-07T07:06:00.000-07:00

**彼岸花，最初无名，据说是位自愿投入冥府的妖精转世而来。冥王不愿让她进入冥府，将她拒在地狱门外，她只好开在冥河两岸。因为香气能够呼唤前世的记忆，所以又叫‘接引之花’。这花有种特性，花开叶落，叶生花败，花叶永不相见，生生相错。春秋两季为花期，花大多是红色，也有少数的白色，盛开的时候连天连地，如同铺火，所以冥河的黄泉路也叫火照之路。后来这种花被人称之为彼岸，亦叫曼珠沙华。

anyway is hiring for par timer?

cause i feel super sien at home waiting for time to pass n without doing anything..

sad case.. stay at home like waiting for parents to feed u like that..

another guy got face but without brain.. lol.. i don feel like got ppl say me a girl got hands but never use the brain to figure out a solution ==

so... i got some (maybe just a bit) thing like planing wat to do in the future few week.

i wanna back to the point that i had set last time~

after i join jefferson i can say totally forget about 'u' a d.. so sad.. T.T

CHEER~!!

erm.. April plan.. can say so...

LOL.. my brain jam a d.. swt" never mind................................................................................

看那歌德式的风采在落地窗上依赖
景色它用美字存在艺术里精彩
节拍从喷泉里传来与喧哗合声一块
那汹涌的人海洋溢着富裕的爱守护着一段安排

*
王子从安徒生的手中带着婚约离开
天文钟的时间冲淡不了被出卖的信赖
爱已回不来风平浪静港口的外海
鸽子和平的释怀陪伴的那人鱼的爱

*
离开哥本哈根你带走的爱
不想沉浸在童话里徘徊
看开我不是你呵护的女孩
回忆像鹅卵石上一朵青苔
爱日复一日走来转眼漂泊了几个未来
风温柔不再得不到明白再见我的爱

*
Yo 哥德式的风采在那落地窗上依赖
就从喷泉里传来喧哗一慢一快合着一块
爱已回不来浪静的外海
鸽子和平的释怀象徽那人鱼的爱

21st

2010-04-07T00:03:00.000-07:00

we looks like couple isn't? omg.... haha..

***

this morning i got a very good mood. cause our staff from Taiwan finally here!!

so happy~~~

been long time waiting for it..

i saw.... food!!!!

yeah yeah.. my shoes es!!!!!!!

happy with holding it in my hand

can't wait to open...

**

Yesterday went Redbox together with kar foong.. haha.. we make there as our playground x)

in the room only got both of us. well, it cause us more crazy.. n this room beside the toilet only so less ppl passed by actually XD

n that's three mics.. so each of us hold one n she said:还有一个给‘好兄弟’ ==

choi!!!!!!!!!!!! walao wei..

i shout out loud: if i saw anyone extra in the cctv singing with us i knock u!!

other than this, we went kimgary to have out lunch.. it was the 1st time we having lunch there but not rushing.. LOL..

but they all seen busy.. no fun LOL.. a bit tak biasa with it

Went OSIM to visit Connie, teman her bank in then go window shopping XD teman her try shoes.. heels!!!!! haha.. n she force me to drink the super duper bitter herbal tea from 恭和堂. omg...... suddenly feel like the kokfa tea taste so good after i try my cup of herbal tea..

if they don force me to drink i guess i can hold it on all the way until redbox there..

foong foong n Iit was kar foong's idea but the sofa not long enough LOL

the food which is we can't finish during kimgary n we bring it along.. but after few hours it's like...

ermm... never mind..

love kar foong.. haha

yeah~!

haha.. 小猪 Show.. see, how swweeett is it.. wkaka

poserrr

p-p-p-poker face she's gonna love nobody

poserrr

sing sing

don worry i took this picture my self == not 'good brother'

playground~~~~~

enjoy.....

we sang a lot a lot of songs but cause only two ppl singing n i just get well from sick thankx to Connie == force me to drink the super bitter herbal tea n we can sing non-stop for it..

saw Chin Hau while waiting for bus.. n it's raining.. miss cheer.... well.. here i go

20th

2010-04-04T04:15:00.000-07:00

咳咳咳。。
4天了啦。。心，肺，血都要出来了啦 T.T
真的好辛苦。
超级讨厌的，真的真的好辛苦。肺和喉咙超不舒服的。

刚从JB回来，想一想。
外公都去世6年了。所以咯！不要吸烟！！！
我的堂哥（ah boy x)）跟着我们上来Subang了。要读书嘛。
所以经Kevin的介绍我们今天去了一家厨师学院的开放日。

还有我告诉我妈妈不要先吃早餐，果然啊！超多试吃的。
从中式点心，日式茶碗蒸，西式前菜，蛋糕，甜甜圈，面包，沙爹，意大利面～！
最糟我咳嗽很多不敢碰（-.-）
好饱（n_n)～～当时超希望有两个胃。哈哈
他的甜甜圈很好吃，外表酥酥一咬是绵的。好好吃～！ oyishi~! (*^~^*)
我们心想以后靠你啦ah boy～！xD

之后去sunway看戏，Alice in the wonderland。不错叻但是我弟弟说闷。讨厌～！
pyramid也没什么走到，累叻。。。

去pasar malam，我真的很尽责的叻。但是我堂哥好像不用我的帮助。。更好 XD
还有希望我弟弟的眼睛可以放大一点，看清楚一点 ==

最近一直在找让我的头发更强壮，皮肤不要那么干的方法。。真爱美，但没办法。很不能接受头法比以前差，脸比以前干。讨厌。 (>.<)

人与人相处为什么要闹到这样，我不准任何人羞辱我的朋友。任何人都不可以！
只要我人定他是我朋友我都会帮和保护他们。就算我帮不上忙我也愿意聆听只要你肯对我说，好吗。可能我很容易相信别人，因为我认为我们是朋友。只要你肯说，我都愿意相信。
所以，我不能够接受被人欺骗。
应该听过‘狼来了’的故事吧？
还有做人要有点责任感好不好？对人对事都一样

P/S：就让它过去吧，放手对自己好过点。我已经不能再一次被狠狠的甩破了，我也不要，也不稀罕！！就像被丢掉的娃娃；拿回来又整样？被扯破的地方难道就没有被缝过的痕迹吗？记得，我没欠你任何东西，我也不需要你的同情和可怜。我一点都不想回到过去。
我讨厌会令我不舒服的感觉。。开开心心就好了嘛，中学都毕业了接受新的人；新的东东更好。

19th

2010-03-31T09:50:00.000-07:00

don feel like talking now.. wat the hell...

U!! STUPID!!!!!!! chi kei lee why u so dumb T.T
because of ur stupid action n it can make u lost 30 bucks reload..

lol..
it happen an hour ago..
foong n i on the phone talking about tomorrow cause thankx to my mom my singk gaigai plan have to be cancel.. ==
n half way my phone out of credit n i do remember that's a reload card in my beg.
i took it out n the stupid thing was too sharp nnnnnn
out of 14 digits..3 digits blur.. n i don know it's zero,three, five, or watever number can it be..
aaaahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
wat the hell!!!
i hate u i hate u i hate u!
it took me more then half hour to try n unblock it for 2 times..
ssshhhhuuuuuttttttt!

hiahz.. too bad lah.. tomorrow only call the stupid maxis center to found out some solution.. ==

today last day for jefferson a d..
n boss san show me a big smile == i was like huh? ==?? wat's going on..
n the topic that kak that all talking is like.... under 18th.. omgg..
ah, i had changed my hair colour yesterday X) thankx Rex for doing a great job n make us into the VIP room XD love it~

April's fool a d le.. but no mood lah..
stupid card..
stupid.. make me can't go singk..
stupid.. make me feel headache..
stupid.. make me feel useless..

why do i care so much? i'm human ok? wat do u wan from me?
watever lah.. don know, don care~!

tomorrow (or maybe today) going to johor a d lu.. foong if u wan to follow just come lah ==

18th

2010-03-28T10:13:00.000-07:00

yeah yeah 开始倒数吧!!
3~~~ 2~~~ 1~~~~
开始要变成无业游民了~~

3 more days to go!! n i'm totally free~!!
omgg.... i'm shouting 'wan shui' from the bottom of my heart..
so happy..

3 months working... happy? got lah.. unhappy? ofcause got lah dumb..
kinda speechless qith my life now..
lol..
now relax le.. go working just work as a part timer only.. (really)
ppl say ok i say ok, any question? no no..
haha easy life..
just 3 more days n i can move on to next step a d =)

n i gonna learn a lots of new stuff n have a good starting..

17th

2010-03-26T10:21:00.001-07:00

Songs.... is a very good molody to release ur stress. But songs also can be a very good memorise. For me, difference song difference ppl..

S.H.E -- Foong n Connie
Empty, Jenny -- Karuna
'Fong" (maple) -- Jia Yi
身骑白马 -- Kevin
说好的幸福呢 -- Zhi Wei
Sorry sorry -- Amirul
失落沙洲 --Hui Xin

It's good to rmb ur frineds but for couple once break up... hahaha.. quite sad lo..
u will feel like spoil the speaker or hate that songs.. lol..

**
25th of mac

early in the morning went seafield with my mom..
aarrrr, miss my form 5 life soooo much..

went ice skating with xin n i saw!! vi jin n ken!! n also aliff...
wat the hell how many months never see u all a d wei.. XD haha
so happy..
n finally now i dare to skate a bit a d.. last time always hold (grap) my friends' hand n don wan to let it go only XD
n i guess i can be better =P

teman connie makan for a while then go gaigai with foong n xin..
went kitschen~~ haha our playground~ woohoo..
ya lah have to buy some tee for college mah..
passed by Jefferson n i don wan to walk in!!
so... escape to PDI hehe.. met kevin's friend n he's last day == swt''
n xin still..... asking everyone to help her to finish her homework ==

went kimgary to have a drink.. yes... kimgary again...==
i guess the ppl who work there see my face until sien a d lo..
n they go drop down their name n liquid it on xin's paper XD damn cute..

n finally we understand why ppl say like that a d..

last time although we hate exam n the school rules but everyday we r around our friends..

happness, sadness.. haihz..

miss 5G!!!!
after that.. SHOW TIME~ redbox~!
but everyone go redbox firstly sure unhappy de lo..
cause of the service there.. lol..

at last went 5G class party for a short while.. [SORRY~!!!!!!]
the BBQ chicken YUMMY~!! can buka kedai a d XD
sorry for ffk for yamcha.. really tired a d.. n my foot aching ><>
***
i serious don know wat i wan now..
actually sometimes feel like i already got wat i wan i'm happy with wat i got but..
just feel like lack of something.....

'something'..
wat's the 'something' mean? *sigh*

i hope i can got my answer soon.. really really hope so..
i pray for it..

feel like the heart so empty.. something missing..

wat my heart want... n wat i wan.. really hope can found out an answer..

***
n i know i suit Cold colour but feel like trying other style.. lol.. but pls don cross my line ok a d =P

##
独送昏暗莫离的风回忆里被爱
那股激动天色好红
温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的面容
一起活在这城市迷宫提起你名字
心还跳动却没重逢
只留下碰却又不敢碰的那种激动
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
该怎么说让彼此选择但思念还转动

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔最温柔

当又一次美梦落空回忆里被爱
那股激动天色好红
温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的面容
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
那是什么让彼此选择又不仅是尊重

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔最温柔

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
却决心和你不再联络
不能握的手却比爱人更长久
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的拥有最永久
##

16th

2010-03-23T19:36:00.000-07:00

Connie n Hui Xin

long time never updated my daily photo a d..

thankx to hui xin cause she loves to take picture a lot.. [really a lot..]

so... if u see most of the photo hui xin will be in don surprise.. haha..

kiss~~

redbox.. crytal's sweet 18th..

in..... redbox toilet lol..

Love is in the air~
haha.. ask the staff from redbox to take for us..

Jefferson.. casue i'm working there so my friend will come visit me n non-stop taking photo..

because in Jefferson SWP that's super duper lots of mirror..

mirror mirror

can't believe we r using Vivian's laptop to make a reflation

random.... ahhh.. don bite me~~ XD~

nita's sweet 18th.. at BBQ plaza SWP

daily photo..

Kevin so semangat but i'm...... hehe

Steven (up left) n Kar Xin (bottom centre).. treat Jefferson as their playground.. lol..

yummy.. Valentine's day but we r.... lol..

15th

2010-03-23T06:39:00.000-07:00

Wat i am trying to prove in those days?
To prove that without all this i can be better, i will be better, 会活得更好。。
只会更好。

***

23/03/2010

today try to drive.. oh my god... the 3 hours a bit bored.. n the whole hall i'm the only chinese...
swt lah wei..

1st time driving.. [not kidding]
although my family got extra car but my mom just don allow me try..
she said without L or P if u drive tough wood kena bang or something AIA wont do anything..
lol.. end up... mean.....
'if u die cannot get money from AIA'
*heart breaker* ==

less then 2 hours n he let me go on the road a d.. oh my....
haha actually quite easy lah just have to used to it that's all..
1st day try then used g3 a d.. lol..

so..... after i resign my job then i got time to do watever i wan a d.. with money in my pocket XD

***

不懂是小说看太多还是听歌听太多。。
终觉得。。 ermm..
怪怪的。说不上伤心，说不上 ermm...
不晓得。
但是情绪起伏很大，还是说女生都是这样啊?

this is the original video from lady gaga n beyonce..
omgg.. can see how scary that a girl can be..
so.. when they said stop calling stop calling, just stop calling ==
but if u really really don call them anymore they will be more mad..
damn wat the hell right.. haha.. but too bad XP

n i don think this video can be play in malaysia.. kind of.. under 18.. lol..

14th

2010-03-22T07:09:00.000-07:00

第14个 post 了。。

14 对我来说真的很特别。

2月14 --情人节 (当然，是 for 有情人的人)
3月14 -- 白色情人节 (for 情人的回礼)
4月14 --黑色情人节 (for 我们这些单身寡佬大喊单身万岁)
5月14 --记录着 ‘你又老了’ 的残忍节日 ==

终于终于炒了老板鱿鱼。你们这样对人咄咄逼人看谁要帮你卖命。XP

还有，我已经是 Taylor's 的学生了。爸爸松了一口气，因为他怕我又会临时改变主意 ==
July intake。因为有重要的东东要做。

10th of May Connie & Foong 就要去 TARC 了。超舍不得的。。。 =~=
终于，要帮我的头发放上新的颜色，和 Foong 一起 =)
不过还是很想念我的长发。快点长啦!!!

我和 Xin 在 Taylor's, Foong & Coonie 在 TARC。一半叻。。
最近我们满迷SASA的，因为真的很值得。跟平常比啦。
买够过后我的宅女生活要开始了。因为真的很晒，不是我大小姐。和以前比现在的太阳晒在皮肤上会有刺痛。恐怖。。

Erm.. 对于爱情嘛。。周围德人都会问但是我和 Connie 的答案都是一样。
不是说完全的死心，ermm，更多是没信心吧。。
还是说目前来说有朋友就够了?
不懂啦，现在的情形很不稳定。
爱情对于我很奢侈。
爱情最怕三心二意，专一这个词都不懂还有没有呢。
最近妈妈问我喜欢整样的男生，心里闪过了危险的气息
心想:"不要乱来"但是还好，她问爽 ==

突然很想听周杰伦的夜曲。可能因为歌词的关系吧。。

***

为你弹奏萧邦的夜曲，纪念我死去的爱情。

跟夜风一样的声音，心碎得很好听。

手在键盘敲很轻，我给的思念很小心。

你埋葬的地方叫幽灵。

为你弹奏萧邦的夜曲，纪念我死去的爱情。

而我为你隐姓埋名，在月光下弹琴。

对你心跳的感应，还是如此温热清晰。

你那鲜红的唇印。

13th

2010-03-16T19:17:00.000-07:00

做工那超烦的。。
我可不是无病呻吟，而是我们哑巴吃黄莲有苦不能说!

一个月里被强迫没有假期，等店renovation才能有假。。haihz..
不差啦，都要不做了。

你!竟然敢叫我肥?? 好吧，我要给你好看 [那时当场决定 ==]

SI Kevin say if some time u also lazy to make up d better don get a lens.. lol...
i just say the colour lens very nice only.. but true also XP hehe

after put on ,make up have to remove de le ''Ah Siang (Sir)'' = =

i wan to change my hair colour~ but but... no time for now... (uuurrrrgghhh!)
errmm wat colour shall i use le?

just finish watching SNSD new mv Oh!
in the end of video they pop out two type of SNSD but i would like to be the right hand side one XP

12th

2010-03-13T18:19:00.000-08:00

got a heavy headache yesterday..

aaahhhh... i hate this..

was chit chatting with Raj last night n it's all about friendship n education..

kind of sick so not going to Jefferson today but i think my mom will bring me to Mid Valley for the education fair.. i got to know this because of a lecture from limkokwing told me.

****

~after~

feel super bad now.. cause it's so expensive!
diploma + degree.. haihz..

in the end.. tourism ---> event management..
the KDU ppl said it's a bit like PR.. == n i turn my head to my mom n show a (==) face..

tar quite cheap but 1stly far.. 2ndly they don have the class that i wan i guess.. or else kampar.. which is my hometown there.. LOL..

Taylor's can give better offer n also the location but the most expensive out of all..
KDU not bad also.. cheaper (compare to Taylor's) but a bit far.. at Damansara.. n if register earlier can get cheaper also.. but just imaging that everyday have to drive to damansara n come back to subang.. it's $$money$$ also..

new inti don have the course in new inti subang jaya..
or else.. ony hotel management which is name Genting Inti.. Location: Genting ==

my ghost..... why that is so many thing to think about ps: money..
pps: money..
ppps: money..

uurrrrggghhh.. some more i'm not smart == or else... haihz... don wan to say a d..

11th

2010-03-12T09:00:00.000-08:00

never know that after getting result will create more problems..

since last month never off a d le.. very tired de lo..
some more now fann about school n intake..

1stly say PR very good then i choose MS lo.. suddenly say why the school so far so dangerous..
==

of cause i know international college better right but look at the fees man [woman]..

suddenly said ' we "hope' u can study management'
wat the.... before that said PA not good.. fine.. change.. HM too expensive.. fine, change..
said we wont do anything u have to choose urself.. but now 'we "hope" u can bla bla bla'
if wan to help me choose just told me earlier lah I'm ok with it de mah..

haihz..

but yet.. next next week i will got my been long time waiting---- 4 days holiday.. (22th till 25th~)

in 4 days time i don know how many college that i can go also..

taylor's? don know.. will go see how's tarc going on.. inti maybe?

22nd teman my mum..
23rd running over..
24th 6 hours..

this 3 days sure full a d..

left only one day can play.. the that guy say left it for him.. haha.. [jk lah i guess]
n they r really fun though.. =) nah nah nah, give u guys a Star* XD~

time pass so fast.. but kevin said i like small girl, Xiao Mei Mei.. swt~~!!!!!!!!!
why~??? = =

think is fake me wan lah.. XD
i'm 18th soon wei..

aahhh, gonna stop working soon liao.. hao se bu de ni men~ sob..sob..**
i will miss u guys i promise this promises XP

stop being sad n we can't change the history..

*sigh*

btw, so lonely~! c'mon let' huggggg~~~~pillow! XD

wat to do... wakakakakaa..

enjoy single life ba~! *muax* nite zzZ

10th

2010-03-11T09:00:00.000-08:00

不是很满意自己的成绩。。烂。
有点不开心。。

但过去了嘛。。想想未来更好。
终算放下一颗心里的石头。。

未来会更好!!! fighting~!

为我好。。。。。不要再问了!!!! XP

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喜欢双手环抱着膝盖的感觉；

感觉上这样就可以为自己立下结界，自我保护。

喜欢在高处双脚摇摇往下看，地理因素我占最强。但会有往下跳的冲动。

高处不胜寒但高处显得安宁，而我不安宁的心灵也会被安抚。

真的有必要做到四月半吗?是为朋友?良心?还是金钱的欲望?

喜欢躲在树下，感觉上强大粗壮的树干是我的避风港；多在树上又有掩饰的作用。

所谓:人往高处走，水往底处流，这不是人生生存的车票吗?

责任?这表面以显得不平凡的字可以杀人于无形呢! 真讽刺。。

命运被握在他人手中的感觉真差。。。

梦想与金钱不能作比较吗?

好苦涩的感觉。。。

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2010-03-10T08:50:00.000-08:00

stupid wei.. damn scared.. haihz.. although i know i can't do anything n it's already became a history in my life..
but i just trying to escape from the real world..

i wish i can just stay in my own world, use my speed to move on.
enjoy the little peaceful in my dream although it's short..
maybe I'm too greedy n don wan to stay awake..

in this 2 months time I'm enjoying my work time. working really can make a person grown up in a short time..
if i never work i will never know n maybe still being a 'little girl'
think of this world just like as simple as i though but actually it's not..
u can see the ppl fighting between power n money..
drama but it's true..

pop 2 months time had pass.. n it will never come back.
i don know how tomorrow looks like but i know it's will come n i can't do anything to make it stop or pause..

ppl said life like drama but we just can't stop moving on..

don wan to let it go but can't do anything... is it because of I'm not strong enough?

but i can feel the time had knock my door n said:'time up'

i need to be stronger, i have to be stronger...

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2010-03-09T08:37:00.000-08:00

my ghost.. this few day the thing that i can do to release my stress r-----
guess wat? ice-cream, chocolate n shopping. = =

ermm.. this few day i went... Puma, SubZero, SaSa, Tough, Kitschen.. lol..
super duper enjoying shopping but the money in the pocket will be another problem.. haha..
n i can't stop with chocolate n ice-cream.. sweet stuff will makes me forgot about wat is going on for now..

but getting fat lah dummyyy..

no off day for this month so now when i break time together with foong n connie we will go walk walk, window shopping n check out their new stock.. haha.. if really like it just buy lo.. haha of cause only useful stuff.. ermm.. think so..? xP

went kmg saw wendy was there also.. n the edwin arrr = = damn lame...

n i realize i quite lucky de lo..
other ppl can't get 'delivery'.. like gasoline never get delivery but maybe i lucky or something that guy maybe know I'm out of time n he offer make delivery for me..
n even pants can get delivery also.. swt'' really lazy to get it mah.. but damn cool wei~!!

haihz.. they're true.. wat would happen if i choose plan A n plan B?
wat I'm waiting for now?
hiahz..
actually i'm dream about my college life it's full of fun, met new ppl new stuff..
n i can go for cheer here n there bla bla bla..

now just waiting for me to throw out the letter to shop.. ''fire the boss'' xD haha
mafan lo.. they said have to do it 1 month before the date.. swt~!

i believe future is in our hand but yet sometimes we need some luck, some ppl who help us n pull us up..

But,
这世界没有偶然只有必然
i know i can make it

haihz.. damn emo wei..

7th

2010-03-08T07:14:00.001-08:00

being super duper long never online at home a d..
last time when i online was using Jefferson's pc n online for a short while before work get started..

yeah.. new pc.. i love u~~!

Happy birthday PAPA~! love u~! kesian wei.... 38day = his birthday..

found out i'm the top sales of Feb out of so many Jefferson outlets my supervisor said 光宗燿祖 so she allow me to go back early.. XD~

28th..

Da Mouth went pyramid for Puma~!!
super duper hot n crazy.. n the dance competition feel like quite easy to win..
n when i passed by Puma my mind told me i wan that beg n my mom will like it too.. the sharp red just cough my eye ball..

4th
went mos with jefferson n wendy's friends..
1stly they said go mos n finally my parents allowed to go but have to come back before 2 something.
n went we reach there n waiting for su huey to bring us along n they said OPERA lah! we like wat the hell wei.... = = stupid lo opera Islam can't get in.. n yet we back to mos only Vivian n su huey so call adult stay there..
i like mos more still..
have fun but ain't enough.. aahhhh, that cute guy~!!! lol.. mos more young ppl but opera looks like for the ppl who really drinking only but ain't enjoy the music n the beat..

today..

went SUBZERO n show my mom the shirt that we bought at Singapore n of cause shopping there.. n the 'miss' ask me the prise or promotion or whatever n i just smile to her n said:' sorry miss but I'm not the worker here' n i just look at her face like i never do.. n she like paise n blushing n use the shirt to cover her face..

haihz too bad jefferson's uniform n sub look a like.. but r there blind? hello~? I'm holding my shopping beg..

swt''

don care the ppl who malu not me.. haha.. next, we walk in Puma n i got my dream beg~ =)
it's in red n it's a sport type beg.. the reason that i can have it is because of my mom said----------- :'okay, buy lo use ur own money at the same time borrow me..' = =
how smart. . . n now i got the mini speaker for my mp4 haha.. it's better actually especially the time before i sleep i like to play the music in my mp4.. nice~

about cheer.... i think I'm not use to bbgym style to practise..
they r totally diff from vulcanz n charm maybe because of they r new.. but make me feel that they r not really serious about the practise the training..
n i already told chee wei i will follow him run around the schools n the teams.. ahhh~! so happy =)
see, chin hau don say i left u alone again k..

n i think i had choose my way in my heart..

n yet... still no photo XD chill chill.. time will come..
but this Thursday our spm result coming out although I'm not gonna get in by Thursday but i just can't cover the nervous n the stress from my heart..

Chill... i gonna go my own way..

6th

2010-02-24T19:28:00.000-08:00

lol.. kinda bored n sleepy..

went nokia shop to check my phone.. change a brand new battery which is original from nokia need about RM179.. lol.. sure kena scold kao kao.. = =

btw, i got my new camera. Canon actully.. [photo later = =]

two days work full n slept after 12 lol.. if give me 1 week full i sure will fall sick..
dammnnnn sleepppppyyy man..

*sigh*

choon told me in chee wei's ranking Vulcanz all girls & all boys got 3rd n 4th.. ONLY..
lol... plssss work hard so that we can have the best out of the best routine to summit during Cheer 2010.
Got It?

feel kinda sad wei!!!! but now i don know wat's going on with my result n about the all star team..
where should i go? where shall i belong to?

this friday can't go cheer for sure a d cause KL holidays [but we never get double pay for it = =]
everyone have to work as full or noon..
full = 9.30a.m. ~ 10.30p.m.
noon = 1p.m. ~ 10.30p.m.

but the gym during evening/night 7.30p.m. ~ 9p.m.

crush...

**sigh**sigh**

i guess my toe touch sure bye bye sayonara a d..
T.T

n i found out few pretty nice songs.. lol..

n realiza my blog quite a time no picture or photo a d.. hehe XP
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Body Language__Jesse McCartney

Nappy Boy, Pretty Boy collaboration

That thing you got behind you is amaaazing

Ooo, that body's like music to my ear

'Cause what you want is right here

Oh she, oh she so international

The way, the way she get it on the floor

I'm tryin', I'm tryin' to holler at you

I want to get to know you better

Parlez vous francais?

Konichiwa

Come and move in my way

Hey, little chica from Guadeloupe

That thing you got behind you is amazing

Now, I don't speak Spanish, Japanese or French

But the way that body's talkin' definitely makes sense

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

The way she moves around

When she grinds to the beat

Breaking it down articulately

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

It's her, her body, her body, her body

That make me want to say hey...('ey!)

Hey...('ey!) Hey...('ey!)

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

C'mon

I'm lifting up my voice to say

You're the hottest girl in the world today

The way you shake

You got me losing my mind

You're banging like a speakerbox

Turn around the party stops

Universal lady, let me take you away

Now, I don't speak Spanish, Japanese or French

But the way that body's talkin' definitely makes sense now

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

It's the way she moves around

When she grinds to the beat

Breaking it down articulately

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

It's her, her body, her body, her body

You make me want to say hey...('ey!)

Hey...('ey!) Hey...('ey!)

It's her, her body, body, body language

C'mon

Ooo, that body's like music to my ear

'Cause what you want is right here

listen to the music that in my mp4..enjoy the remix n the beat, the sound that's getting in my mind..

"Taking joy in living is a woman's best cosmetic." ~ Rosalind Russell

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in love with thai song, due to doing research have to look for difference bands in asia n i get to know him! TOR SAKSIT.. this song means 'i love you' so sweet! n so nice! :D

Artist: ToR+ Saksit (โต๋)Album: Living in C MajorYear: 2007

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Artist: ToR+ Saksit (โต๋)
Album: Living in C Major
Year: 2007